Wednesday, June 29, 2005


Oh yeah, today physics do very smoothly, finally my crap skills has finally been utilised. Half the time i just see the question, without 2nd thoughts, WRITE! Just made sure i finish the blank spaces given, then i move on to the next question, then yeah, should be difficult i guess, but can't trust ernest they all, cause everything seemed difficult, hahahahha. Anyway, in the end our answers all don't tally. Heck care! what's jct man? Faster get it done and over with...

Anyway, saw this website on julian's blog, i didn't imagine dreams could be so fascinating. Yeah so while i'm mugging, here's something for you all to read, it's quite accurate i guess. I don't know why, but i always dream of myself falling down a building, then suddenly jolting up before i crash. Oh well, it was freaking scary. Of course, a couple of time i dreamt of myself taking exams, quite scary as i don't know what to do because haven't mug! hahahaa, and one very vivid dream, it was like the Anaconda movie scene, quite freaky for me too.

Extracted from
I'm Falling"

Falling dreams are another theme that is quite common in the world of dreams. Contrary to a popular myth, you will not actually die if you do not wake up before your hit the ground during a fall.

As with most common dream themes, falling is an indication of insecurities, instabilities, and anxieties. You are feeling overwhelmed and out of control in some situation in your waking life. This may reflect the way you feel in your relationship or in your work environment. You have lost your foothold and can not hang on or keep up with the hustle and bustle of daily life.?When you fall, there is nothing that you can hold on to. You more or less are forced toward this downward motion without any control. This lost of control may parallel a waking situation in your life.

Falling dreams also often reflect a sense of failure or inferiority in some circumstance or situation. It may be the fear of failing in your job/school, loss of status, or failure in love.?You feel shameful and lack a sense of pride. You are unable to keep up with the status quo or that you don't measure up.

According to Freudian theory, dreams of falling indicate that you are contemplating giving into a sexual urge or impulse. You maybe lacking indiscretion.

Falling dreams typically occur during the first stage of sleep. Dreams in this stage are often accompanied by muscle spasms of the arms, legs, and the whole body. These sudden contractions, also known as myclonic jerks. Sometimes when we have these falling dreams, we feel our whole body jerk or twitch and we awaken from this jerk. It is thought that this jerking action is part of an arousal mechanism that allows the sleeper to awaken and become quickly alert and responsive to possible threats in the environment.

According to biblical interpretations, dreams about falling have a negative overtone and suggest that man is acting and walking according to his own way of thinking and not those of the Lord.

"I Failed The Test"
To dream that you are taking an exam, indicates that you are being put to the test or being scrutinized in some way.?Such dreams highlight your feelings of being anxious and agitated. You may find that you cannot answer any of the questions on the test or that the test is in some foreign language. Is time running out and you find that you can not complete the exam in the allowed time? Or are you late to the exam? Does your pencil keep breaking during the exam? Such factors contribute to you failing this test. These dreams usually have to do with your self-esteem and confidence or your lack of. You are worried that you are not making the grade and measuring up to other people's expectations of you. You may also experience the fear of not being accepted, not being prepared, or not being good enough. You feel nervous, insecure and tend to believe the worst about yourself.

These dreams also suggest that you may feel unprepared for a challenge. Rarely, are these dreams about the content of the test, but rather the process and how you are feeling during the exam taking process. Generally, you feel distressed and frustrated. These feelings may parallel how you are feeling in a particular challenge or situation in your waking like.

Dreams of this nature are also an indication that you are being judged and this dream is a signal for you to examine an aspect of yourself that you may have been neglecting and need to pay attention to. You may harbor some guilt because of your neglect in preparation for a school exam, meeting, business project, or some challenge. Most of the time, though, people who have such dreams are unlikely to fail a test in real life. This dream goes back to their fear and own anxiety that they may not meet other's standards of them. They are afraid to let others down.?

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

a post halfway during exams...

Haiz, yesterday was freaking damn sadded, at least i think i can pass my GP, well if you think you write fluently and you still fail, I might as well go ram wall and die. Chemistry was the demoralising part. The paper was ok i thought, but you know, due to excessive slacking, arghh, turned up i screwed all the questions. Firstly is the extent of my carelessness, hahaha, damn dead, i thought i would pass, then michelle had to come demoralise me with all the correct answers! hahahhaa, oh well, forget it, i supposed i can't have all As on my report card.

Today was damn weird, since ytd had 2 papers, i was mentally damn tiring, then yeah, after bathing smell so nice, drop onto my bed and fell asleep at 9pm. I didn't know what happen la, woke up at around 2, was trying darn hard to fall asleep, but to no avail, laid there for like 1++ hour, then decided to wake up and do some maths. So yeah, there i go, 3am doing maths. Anyway did maths until 6+ then went to sch, as usual my pig sister couldn't wake up.

Today maths in my own opinion is a complete waste of time. Hahaha, compared to RJ paper which i did in the morning, it's like relatively easy. Finished in 2 hours and was trying to sleep since then, i'm sure i will get an A. The problem is, how high will that A be? I must see the result liao then analyse my own careless mistakes. Maths 9233? Don't worry, i haven't lost that loving feeling, hahahaha, Thanx to Mr Lim for his infinite teachings and guidance. In your JC world today, i bet you can't find a teacher half as good as him.

Tomorrow is a new day, oh yeah, and yeah, it doesn't mean i won't die. Well i think i won't, but who knows, i can't be that sure about physics. Haha, 5 topics, not too much to worry abt, i'm just worried about my fmaths syllabus, which i haven't covered finish at all. This time, for F maths, it will prove to be the biggest test after leaving Mr Lim. Don't worry, try is all i can, and it would be great to do it smoothly. Just needa pick up the spares, don't worry about the strikes...

Sunday, June 26, 2005

JCT's eve...

Anyway today woke up at 8+, what the hell man, took alot of mental strength to get out of bed. I went to washed up, and went to niu che shui. I think it was quite early at that time, it was still quite cooling, and the most important thing is there is no crowd. I went inside to pray, so ya, then i went to qiu qian. 1st and 2nd time not successful, but by 3rd time can le. Proceeded to go collect the explaination:(translated to english)

Trees are barren of leaves in Autumn. Return journey always seems faster. Thanks to heaven's grace. A ship sails faster with the wind blowing in the right direction.

Whereas for the interpretation of what it said, i shall not tell you! hahahahaha, my mother said it was accurate, well indeed it was. Hmm, works of magic here. Hahaha, didn't do much studying today, and i'm starting to freak myself out. Guess i really die, just hope i can at least pass my GP. Oh ya, the chinese part there was a xian xiong hou ji(meaning first bitter later then sweet). Which means JCT no hope liao, yeah, must depend on the promos, hahahahaha, well at least my mother got the hint.

Roll of honour? Guess that shall be postpone to Dec, then you shall see the true me...

Well, the family matters are just getting worst. The worst thing that could happen had came true. My 3rd uncle is released from jail just recently, he was saying he gonna stay in a home and help out. Hmm, you might think, he's your uncle, why don't you give him a chance to turn over a new leaf? Haa, before you say this say that, just for your information, this is the 3rd or 4th time he went inside, guess he missed the food inside there eh? Anyway, we gave him a chance, my father gave him a chance, in fact the whole family gave him a chance. But my aunties think otherwise, they said he's now a christian, and god will help him overcome this obstacle. Well, if they are right, if he can do it, with god's help, that's good, no harm becoming a christian for a better self. Then maybe he will gain the respect from me back.

Then today my auntie came, whoa the house lightened up with her complaints. Then my uncle said something, JUST only a suggestion, and she made a fuss out of it, took her bag, bang, and she was out in like 10s. Eh wtf was that supposed to mean la. Take my house for a battlefield, please la, not here. Anyway, my father damn funny, my mother came out and what happened? My father gave a "who gives a fuck" face and carried on with his newspaper and tv. I really admire him, all that noise and he can still bo chup. Adult matters, i don't give a damn....

Jialat..old liao.

Just came back from a game of bball with mh. Hahahha, play 21 points, can die man. In the end i win 21 by 19, but i predicted 21 20, hahahahaha, close fight, all the creative shots came out. I expect NBA players to use them next season. Hahahaha, damn shag now, getting old liao, say want to train in the end slack at home, cannot make it, so ill disciplined.

Today i can say i did maths, but that little bit, 80% is dedicated to gaming, keep on play game non stop, damn it man. There's nothing much to blog about today, except that Melanie is complete idiot. Her mother got the Air Supply tickets then never give me go watch, what the hell man, hahahaa, crap, become i so ma fan, had to create the scene in my blog, so poor thing. Anyway yeah, Air supply hasn't lost its appeal, duhh, i support how to lose its appeal.

Today really nothing to blog about la, unless you want to hear me talking about what i did in my game, which i think you don't, so ya, end the post here, reverting back to my normal lifestyle, which means, i'm sleeping soon. Everyone, good luck for ur JCTs, well i think most of you all don't need it, cause it ain't gonna help. HAHAHAHAHA

Friday, June 24, 2005

Air Supply 30th Anniversary Concert

Since i didn't get to go for the concert, i'm recreating the scene at home now, with the creative speaker(hopefully my neighbourhood gets to hear this).

Air Supply "Thank you all for coming this night, it has been 30 years, thank you all for your support, sit back and enjoy the songs we are going to bring you tonight..Sing along if you know all these songs."

Album: Air Supply - Always And Forever (The Very Best Of)
1 - Air Supply - Every Woman In The World
2 - Air Supply - The One That You Love
3 - Air Supply - All Out Of Love
4 - Air Supply - Sweet Dreams
5 - Air Supply - Lost In Love
6 - Air Supply - Making Love Out Of Nothing At All
7 - Air Supply - Young Love
8 - Air Supply - Here I Am (just When I Thought I Was Over You)
9 - Air Supply - Even The Nights Are Better
10 - Air Supply - Just As I Am
11 - Air Supply - Two Less Lonely People In The World
12 - Air Supply - The Power Of Love (you Are My Lady)
13 - Air Supply - I Can Wait Forever
14 - Air Supply - Love And Other Bruises
15 - Air Supply - Empty Pages

Isn't really the version I'm listening to, but it's about the same, alot more titles which i am lazy to put it in.

Air Supply"Thank you very much for coming, i hope you enjoy the concert. Thank you thank you..." *Walks to backstage*
Crowd"Encore encore encore encore..."

Air Supply"Of course, how could we leave before presenting our favourite songs(Actually its mine), Goodbye and hard to say i'm sorry previously sang by chicago."

Hard to say I'm sorry
Everybody needs a little time away
I heard her say
From each other
Even lovers need a holiday
Far away
From each other

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay
After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
And after all that's been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Just for the day
From your body
Wouldn't wanna be swept away
Far away
From the one that I love

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go
After all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise to
And after all that's been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go

After all that we've been through
I will make it up to yo
uI promise to

You're gonna be the lucky one
When we get there gonna jump in the air
No one'll see us 'cause there's nobody there
After all, you know we really don't care
Hold on, I'm gonna take you there

If you're currently wondering where's the lyrics for the song goodbye, for you idiots who don't frequent my blog, yes you katherine teo, classified under idiots, it's in the previous post, You're welcome...(Notice this section is only for katherine teo, not my fault, she insisted it.)LOLL!!!

Air Supply"Thank you all so much, bye bye,god bless you!!"


Once again, today i slept at 6, hahahaha, was playing game with kevin. The clan master damn good, help me do this do that, buy this buy that, damn shiok. I woke up at 11, watched NBA groggily, damn, pistons lost! I think because their defence abit lag, then got robert horry this type people, don't close him down 3 points means chop. Anyway, since luck ain't that good, i wish i get F9 for my subjects, so many come out will all A1..LOL!

Anyway, i went back to sleep after that, woke up at around 1++, my sis brought her friends home, and were damn noisy, but it's peace again now. Yup, I tried to do maths just now, so freaking difficult, don't know what's the problem with me, stupidity is really contagious...HAHAHAHA. It's alright actually, strikers have goal droughts, so why can't i have maths drought, i'm confident i'll start "scoring" soon.

Heard from Elaine that the english on my blog is A2 standard, hahahahha, i told her "you confine me to a title and i'll die." Hahahaha, i mean, look at my master piece, i can create and compose crap out of nothing, in an instant. Well, it's over, not that bad too eh, at least i know that NY is a truly fucked up place. Hahahhaa, very tired, i'm detetermined that i'm gonna revert back to the so called "normal person" lifestyle. Yeah past 2 weeks i slept at an average of 5am, electricity bill is going up.

I'm so damn excited, you know why? Exams are over in a week!! Then it's holiday all over again. Hmm, depends on how, but i think it will be a self declared 2 week holiday, then i'll concentrate on my promos. Of course, you get Fs on ur report card and you expect to play on. No problem man, FRC(Future Retainee Club) I'm not gonna stay in that club, you all can promote to Retainee Club yourself. However, i'll not be resigning my post as director of the Anti Mugging Department in Why Mug Inc. , as i'm still convinced what the chairman said was true. Hahaha, Marist youth days coming up, i'm going back. But i know it, you know it, we all know it.
It's never gonna be the same ever again...

Thursday, June 23, 2005

The feeling is back..

No no, i'm not talking about bowling, i'm talking about slacking. Today basically slack for the whole day. I woke up at around 12, considering i slept at around 5 debating and defining what's an idiot. Hahaha, anyway, I wonder which idiot eat at 5am before going to sleep, hashahhahaa.

So i slack for like 2 hours after i woke up, then yeah went to play pool. It was basically boring, the freaking table so small, hit here hit there the same old balls, and we were playing 9 ball. Didn't have the mood to carry on, and since they didn't want to play snooker, we all decided to end it early. In the end i paid only $2, ahhahahaa, the table cost $12. Shaun who lost the most, had to pay the most, but ended up paying $2 too, mh got damn pissed. hahahaha, after that is back home.

Then i played abit of ROSE, yeah may sound familiar to some of you all, remember when it first came out we started liao, in the end all got bored, due to excessive maple that time, so yeah didn't attain a very high level.

I forgot what i wanted to blog about, but nvm, just crap along. Tomorrow is the crucial game 7, guess i'll be waking up to watch. I don't like spurs, don't know why too, so ya, go pistons! Hmm, don't really feel like mugging now, but well, do i really have a choice? Shit, i thought of what i wanted to blog about a split second ago, but i forgot the content when i'm typing this. Hahahahahhaa, this is crap.

Hmm, going to get a new phone, but i don't know which one to get, but most preferably Nokia, more user friendly. I don't want to get use to a new phone all over again. Budget is probably 100 to 200 over with contract extension. So yeah, everybody, suggestion please...

It's back to mugging, but it's not too bad now, my favourite subject, though i agree with what thia said, the person who came up with trigo is a fucked up asshole! hahahahaha, i can understand his frustration, so many freaking formulas, i mean, even differentiation and integration seemed easier. Ah well, who cares? Just do and do and do, then during exam, everything is NO KICK! But anyway, how much kick can NY really give.... We shall see man, we shall see...

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

The song of the year...

Air Supply-Goodbye

And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have so much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye

You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong....

You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say, but goodbye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say goodbye

Tuesday, June 21, 2005


Today slept at 630+, then woke up at 1145, then it's like fuck, i got 15 mins to go down to csc, anyway, didn't even wash up, change my clothes then lucky father came home for lunch, then pia me go down there, then i reach there that time they doing warm up only. Phew...heng.

Then after that was fouline andd 3 step, it's been such a long time since i touch my bowling ball, so ya, first throw was abit weird weird wan. The foul line wan not bad, but i think everytime switch back to 3 or 5 step will have abit of screw up here and there. At last, my back swing can go higher liao, and when the ball comes down i won't anyhow screw up the shot. Don't know why also, sudden enlightenment. Then after first section i damn seh liao, so tired some more. After lunch is like playing game. Go gutter, never spare, something wrong during approach, 10 push ups each. In the end, i had to do 100++ push ups.

Ok la, not that bad, got 1 point my ball went back to straight ball, but now better, can feel the ball, so sort of know where goes wrong. My whole hand numb some more, keep on grip ball then damn pain. Overall it is not that bad, although it's still bad, but it's not bad until it's bad, you know...ya. Then must do homework, i blog first, after that then copy down, notebook in csc. Long term and short term goal arh, well, for now rite, most important thing is to take up spares first lor. Watch those pros bowl, damn sian, bowling like damn easy, ta ma de. Nvm, i'll reach that stage, hahahahhaa. For long term leh, during A division of course individual cannot be like kns la, that time the south zone thing is 15++, then position 67th rite, so ya, by A division is quite a long time rite, aim around top 20, the best is that day on form pia a top 10 out. Hahahaa,
Not much la, then meanwhile technical wise short term is get more hook on the ball. Long term leh, generate more wraft, then ya, make the ball come back stronger. Then next part is the 5 errors wan, quite easily actually, cause got alot errors. the 5 errors are, left hand, left hand, left hand, left hand, left hand, LOL! hahahha, I also don't know much, firstly should be left hand, then after that is release, then finishing also not strong in my opinion, then ya, focusing also one problem, today lost concentration then look all over the lane, then in the end screw up. Then one thing as for why my ball never hook that much is because i never pull the ball up, well i think only la. About there liao lor, 5 errors, so easy! hahahaha.

Then ya, nvm de la, worse to worse case, maybe decide to quit bowling. hahahaa, we shall see how it goes la.

Monday, June 20, 2005

Past 3 days...

This 3 days had been quite busy. The past 2 days only had like 7 to 8 hours of sleep, so ya, yesterday was spend mostly on sleeping. Anyway, Let me recall what i did this 3 days.

First one was went to Shaun house, supposedly to study, with mh cb and ernest, in the end got one elsa, don't know what she doing there, we can't guys talk in the end! hahahaha, joking la. Anyway, as i was saying, supposedly study, but in the end i went to watch golf, then after that was PS until 6, playing the monkey magic. Ma de, get my jing gu bang then i kena stuck. Anyway damn shag la, woke up at around 9+ 10, then continue playing ps. Then after that went to long john to mug with my mugging kakis, shi han michelle pei fen yu xuan yuan ting and peh peh. Peh damn pro, sit there for full 3 hours, finish maths, then go home. I like that man, anyway, i was damn shag la. Then after that melanie and katherine, keep on fan and fan and fan, in the end had to ask them come my house to mug instead of the stupid airport, which is at freaking changi.

Then that brings us to the 2nd day, as i was saying, so shag how to mug, so in the end i was just slacking there, and the 2 girls also never study anything. What the hell man, anyway the next morning went for breakfast, then kena pull to the airport again. Ma de, wrong decision, fetch jia liao then they carry on with their girls talk, kao, waste my time go there. After that went back home, had dinner then sleep. 1 sleep then is 14 hours, except that 1am woke up then michelle call, can't remember what we talk, hahahaha, then took another 1 hour to get back to sleep due to the flashing of the thunder. Then woke up in the morning watch NBA 5th game, damn exciting. In the end spurs win 89 to 88, ma de, i want detroits to win!

Anyway, after dilly dallying for 1 hour++, suppose to meet yuan ting at the macs at 11, or so michelle said, but in the end, i reach there at 1, hahahaha, too bad la, maris stella told me never ever to be punctual...hahahaa. Went to mug my chemistry, glad to say i left 1 chapter, then tomorrow can start with physics le. Saw melissa at the mac, i say bye to her then she dao me! hahahahhaa, after that went home, then is slack until now, think i go finish that last chapter. Then can start with the issac newton thing liao. No Nobel prize in that area, i don't really like physics...hahahaha

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Part 2.

Yesterday was sort of 1st part of the post, just briefly describing what happened the past few days, then after publishing, realised still got alot of things to say, hahaha.

Thia just told me this morning, our KFC no. 17 member kena appendictis or whatever, knn, super suay. My father say is very common this type of case, but must detect early, or else jialat. Then again, must go for operation, cut everything open, fuck, i got injection phobia, imagine asking me go for operation, ma de, can faint. Anyway, get well soon cheng siong.

Oh ya, and forgot to thank justin before i went home that time, hahaha, abit paiseh, lend us his court, his swimming pool, his house, his barbeque pit. Thanx leh brother, hahha, the father also so generous, we all pay $10, the food is like free flow, you can't possibly finish so much, chee lim don't even have time to finish bbqing all the food. Although we played soccer like for a few hours only, our skin still change colour, cannot remember the sun shining on us, thia was saying why u so red, but he himself even more red. ahhahahaa. Anyway the Ubin trip is confirm le, hopefully everybody will be able to make it, less 1 people less fun, so ya, so hope the regulars can go and parteh with us in the forest. hahahaa.

Now back to the cruise part, i tell you, the service is becoming from best to worse, the change is so freaking drastic.

Me:"can i have some chilli sauce?"
waitress walk away...
Me:"Can i have 4 glass of ice water?"
the same waitress walk away again...
Me:"Can i have some red chilli?!"
That fucking bitch walk away again...
She returned one last time with the food, and shot out " what you wan?"
Eh fuck u bitch, from what i know, u are not suppose to serve like that slut, knn, like to act slut so much go geylang la bloody whore. Of course i already damn bu shuang, then i scold and scold and scold, scold until my parents pissed ask me to stop, hahaha, fucking bitch. There's so many cases of the waiter and waitress giving me those fucked up face and pissing me off, knn, but there are still the few good old people, always serve with a smile, see liao also happy rite. Knn, who say singapore people can't serve, fuck la, the foreigners are getting worse.

Not much particular thing happen in Penang and Phuket, only that in phuket the driver was kind of fucked up, take us to all the cock up place, na bei, 1 lunch without any seafood dish like prawns and crab cost us 260++, and i'm talking about sing dollars, not thai baht. Anyway eat liao then pay lor, my auntie keep on insist dowan to pay, even my father also fed up with her.

That brings us to the family issue liao. Haiz, long before i was born, my grandfather his wife and his sons and daughters live happily under 1 roof. There may be conflicts here and there, but my grandfather is always there to solve everything. He is king of the family, when he says one, nobody can say two. I remember my father saying, he and his 4 brothers went to the canal and jumped into the water to play, with nobody knowing how to swim. In the end kena caught back home, then everyone kena whack very jialat, only my father the most guai wan, then my grandfather hit softer. Then my grandfater is zhong nan qing nu, everything also boy first. However, nobody dare to argue with him. I mean, he even dare to use a flower pot and smash on my uncle head, nearly causing him to die, what else can't he do, that's why he's so feared by everyone. He's also a man well respected by both the traids and the cops. He is very loyal to his friends, always helping others in need, which is why i always think it was a pity i couldn't get to know him.

You say you don't believe in supernatural stuff. On the eve of his deathday, i was only 2 weeks old, that night, i was crying non stop, nobody seem to able to stop me crying, until my grandfather carried me. That fateful night, he came back from a dinner and said he was not feeling well, and he went off just like that...He had a very very grand funeral, alot alot of people came to pay their respects. The police was even there to monitor the situation as they were afraid the triads would cause trouble. Anyway, he did came back occasionally to play with me. However i can't remember anything. My mother used to say when she left me alone, i would run to the kitchen to find her and said i'm scared. Then my parents brought me to a medium, and she said the ghost came in peace, so who else but my grandfather. I was the heir of the family, so ya, he was very happy when i was born.

Anyway, left my grandmother, and she became such a poor soul. Now the girls starts complaining why the guys get everything and they don't, so ya, in my mother's will everyone got a fair share. Haiz, so yes, the family seemed to fall apart. My uncles, haiz, is like a sad case, forget it, don't say le, but i think all those close to me de will know what happen la. My auntie leh, 2 of them converted to christian, in hokkien words is jia gao. Then yeah, alot alot of problems came along. It's not i hate christians, trust me, i got very very good christian friends as well, but i don't know, in my family case they say things that hurt my grandmother very much. Then we all along buddhists, therefore some of my relatives cannot stand them god here god there, and to make matters worse, they keep on preach and preach and preach.

There's 1 case where my mother friend experience the same thing. The christian said to her mother" I tell you, if you don't convert to christian, no one will take care of your funeral" I wonder if she's even human, saying this to her very own mother. Well i hope the situation doesn't reach this level in my family. So yeah, my auntie, the buddhist then ask in front of everybody during duan wu jie, "mother arh, if you die arh, touch wood, in case you die, what type of funeral do you wan?" Then the christians abit bu shuang liao, then i don't know, in the end my grandmother said she wanted the buddhist way. Well, she also bu shuang, during duan wu jie ask her this type of thing, yeah, then complain to my uncles and everything lor. I don't know man, i just feel sad for her.

She used to stay with my 3rd aunt in toa payoh, but now my 3rd aunt moved to pasir ris that area, then she didn't want to move, then she stayed with my uncle at toa payoh, but things got worse. They are constantly arguing, then both keep on complaining. Yeah, then i feel that she is not happy at all, haiz, then my uncle don't wan to give way, then make until everybody unhappy. I rather put up with my grandmother constant nagging and nonsense then to see her unhappy. Sometimes i cannot take it and became very rude to her, which i always regret in the end. Haiz, seeing so many people grandmother leave them one by one, i know it's a matter of time, but i don't want to regret, i don't want to take her for granted. She took care of me since young, brought me to play soccer and everything, and now grow up liao i treat her like that. Thus i'm now more conscious of my actions in front of her. If my uncles were these sensible, then nothing would have happen le. The situation is worse until you won't see them often, unless at her funeral, cause that time is for them to collect her assets. Haiz, i feel so helpless sometimes, why they can't stop and think for a second that, their own mother, already how old liao, 80++, and they can't even let her feel the joy of living.

I really don't know la, with all the issues going on, i really don't know.. I really feel very sad for my grandmother.
If only, if only my grandfather was here...

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

The grand reunion, the cruise ship...etc etc

I just came back from cruise, this can easily be the longest post ever, i think i got alot to say for this few days. So ya, if michelle friend is feeling bored again, here goes...

Saturday 11th june 2005
Woke up at around 10, soccer was scheduled to start at 10, yeah how can i be early man, i'm playing soccer with a group of marists, and our motto is never be early. hahahaha. Anyway, had to wait for my mother to prepare the food, then pray before going out. Ate some mee fen but threw most of it away, didn't taste exactly how i expected it to.

Then decided to take 88 to amk mrt then change bus, in the end walk to the market, wait until god knows wat time then the bus came. In the end reach kensington park at 11a.m. Hahaha, everyone reached liao, stunned man. Then after that is ole all the way, fitness lagging like siao liao, hahahaa, run a few rounds then tired liao. After that went for a swim in the pool, then did some fei hu dui stunt, had to crawl to the steam room to avoid the security guard, in the end kena spotted when crawling, hahahahaha, cannot make it. After that soccer again, this time barefoot with some kids. As they were kids, me wc darren and junlong very difficult to play serious, in the end kena thrash. Hahahahha, keep on laughing like siao, playing soccer without running.

After that was the bbq, by that time damn shag liao, then 2 good souls, chee lim and bear help us bbq the food, start from 5 to 11, abit paiseh, keep on eat and play only. hahahaa, anyway, went to bathe then eat and play bridge. Wakao, we play bridge alot of noise, all the vulgarities come out, and worse part is justin mother only sitting next table. Hahahhaa! Oh ya, good day got come also, ahhaha, after that 1 by 1 leave, good day also leave. Anyway play cai quan with chee lim darren justin and cs. Drink until quite full, although abit only. Then after that its about 1130pm liao, bo bian next day must go cruise, i had to go home, the rest of them thorn. It was nice to see all of them again, the feeling was so good, i know everyone enjoy it, hopefully we got another gathering soon, think we going Ubin this saturday, hahahaha, alot of high flying dangerous stuff again i predict.

Sunday 12th june 2005
I woke up at around 9+, parents practically pull me out of bed. Then went to cruise after that, met up with mh and all the other people. Then yeah, nothing much, until at nite, damn happening. It was drink and drink and drink. I drink until i vomit, damn lousy i guess.

Terrorist gun? nah, just a drink with tequila, whisky, rum, triple sec, etc etc etc...The smell was so damn strong. I think this is the drink that played a major factor of why i vomit and mh didn't.

Singapore sling:
This is some crap, what internationally acclaimed cocktail, it taste like shit.

2 bottles of wine:
If i'm not wrong both is french wine i think. First one didn't had much of a taste, the 2nd bottle was much better, but i felt it was too dry. Anyway, me and mh didn't drink wine, we gulp wine. 5 and a half glass of wine.

After that i wasn't walking straight liao, pop down to the karaoke, saw the ang moh girls there, then went there and pop down tequila, me and mh 1 each. After that is anyhow liao, requested for song slip, then i can't even write. Took quite a long time before writing the song titles down.
Feeling quite ok, but once we left, felt like shit liao, in the end vomit at the captain bridge there! hahahahhaa.

Monday 13th June 2005
Woke up at around 10++, still feeling kind of groggy after the drinks, then wash up and went down to penang. Saw our relative, then went to eat. The coffee shop freaking expensive la. Ma de, our dinner was nicer and cheaper. They went shopping for a little while, then went to er yi house to slack, i fell asleep, then wake up went to pray then had our dinner, then we went back to cruise le. Didn't manage to drink ,abit seh.

Tuesday 14th June 2005
Early in the morning went down to phuket, it was kind of a screw up la the whole trip, but well, gain some experience. I went down to the shooting range. Tried the .45 and .38 calibre gun, didn't know how to shoot, shld be not bad for a first timer i guess. So cool the guns, a deeagle and a revolver. Then watch my father used the rifle, no wonder NS rank so high. 100% accuracy, i didn't do too bad with the rifle, shot 5 time, hit 3. After that went for the ATV ride, hahaha, alot of mud, stupid, my pants white become black. Didn't had time to shop, so couldn't buy wine. After that should be the climax of the cruise trip liao. Went into the casino with mh, then after helping my mother win $200, the guards chase us out. I was sitting there ignoring him.

Guard:"Do you understand english?!"
Knn, i stood up walk backwards, and stare him as i walk out. Fucking bastard, chinaman still ask me do i understand english. I was damn pissed the whole nite, went to slp around 2+ whereas mh went to party. I was so fucking mad. In the end, heaven was on my side, as i was walking pass the casino, i saw that guard outside.

Me:"wang ba tan, some people from china think their english damn pro, say wat do you understand? FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND! China people ask me do i understand english...PUI!!!!"

Hahahahhahaa, i felt damn good, i am so sure he heard everything, i mean, its so loud, hahahah, in the end still wanted to go find him and scold, but in the end he not around liao. KNN, if ur english so pro u still security guard, fuck off la asshole.

Anyway, i type until damn tired liao, still got alot to type wan you know, but guess you all read until bored le, so i stop here...hahahahaa. Thanks the immigration for screwing up, i arrive home 1 hour later.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Kungfu Mahjong.

Today morning being awaken by my mother, told me that she needed to borrow my phone, go some clinic to get her bad tooth out, but in the end my sister accompanied her go, i'm too sleepy:). Then after that drifted back to sleep, then walao, michelle called me at 11am lor. I told her the previous night to call me, not to WAKE ME UP! ahahahhaa, what the hell man, in the end still went back to sleep. Woke up at around 12, watched justice league, then realised meeting at 1215, haiz, then go to orchard. In the end me and sh reached first, and michelle nowhere to be seen. First to arrive, but last to reach, still must say HIIIIII to friends. hahahaha.

After that went to lido, debating whether kungfu mahjong is a M18 show anot, in the end, obviously not. After lunch went to buy tickets, then since got an hour to the show, went on to mug chemistry energetics. Most of it is chatting la, so didn't mug much. Then watched the movie. Hahahahahhaa, so freaking funny, laugh until cannot laugh. Maybe not to most, but to people who play mahjong, this is a MUST WATCH movie. Hahahahahhaa....

Girl:"tiles are like woman, got personality."

Guy:"That means i need to pao the tiles?"

hahahahahhahaha, so freaking funny. Then during the mahjong competition, the guy suddenly sing song. hahahahahhahaha. Unchain melody. Ohhh, my hong zhong, 7 circles mei mei, faster come back...hahahahahahahahaha, laugh until peng. The one sitting below him buay ta han, think he psycho...hahahahahahahahaha.

I'm still laughing as i blog, so freaking funny man. Next time watch out, my new mahjong tactics. hahahahhahaaa...After that carry on mugging. Don't know why mug so long, took about 4 hours to finish energetics, almost didn't finish mugging on time. Hahahhahahaha, wat the hell, the show so funny. Kk, go do maths liao...

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

those days...

I was just thinking of the good old days. The days where you look forward to school, why? Because when school dismiss, you know you got somewhere to go, to chill, to relax, to party. Everyday is one party, and yeah, i didn't got sick of it. Bowling, slacking, TS, many things we could do man. After lessons is like, really throw everything away temporary and just party.

Those days, soccer, makan, everything is just so common. Study, after study play, everyday is a new day, and nothing gets better than Mr Lim's lesson. Though long, but it always seemed short doing maths, you just don't get tired doing it. Don't forget Chia Kok Pin, that kuku guy, never fails to make physics interesting, never mind the results we got. hahahhaa. Of course, Jazilah lesson, apart from the lectures, it's quite interesting also. Then we have the weekly test by miss Foo, then the slacking time with Ragu, and the "free period" during chinese. Those days... it was fun.

Then we had countless outings man, Kbox, soccer, clubbing, everything. After darrell went to Australia, some things seemed to be amiss liao, and gone were the days where we chiong town almost every other day. Nothing to do also come out meet, now everybody got their own schedule, honestly, it sucks.

Now in a new environment, you have to practically beg people to go for class outings, then yeah, you can't do much when you have girls and guys together. Haiz, i thought it is good in a mix environment, i beg to differ now. What's so good about girls man, i rather i was still in maris stella with the same old group.

JC just suck la, nvm, relieving the old days. Saturday, kensington, OLE~~!!

Monday, June 06, 2005

South Zone competition.

Just realised it has been such a long time since i blog. Didn't have the energy to blog for the past few days. Down with cough flu and fever, almost died man, so mentally and physically draining.

Anyway, today went to victor's bowl for the south zone thing. Hahaha, damn crap, my ball can't hook again, back to square 1. Surprisingly, i still bowled ok, 118, 143, 174, 166. Hahahhaa, it's quite funny. People go bowling competition to like bowl their games, then me and ernest is like doing training. I was like trying to get the release, then ernest trying to get his timing. First 2 games i was practising my 5 steps lor. After that then the ball hook abit, that little bit. Wednesday must go and correct everything, damn screwed.

After that went to j8 lor, then went home. Haiz, i damn scared now, exams are coming, but i ain't studying. Haiz, and my GP, i got GP phobia, fuck GP man... Tomorrow still got lessons, 10am, make me don't feel like going to school, so late in the morning ask me go sch.

Nothing much to blog about man, just to tell u people i'm still alive...hahaha