Thursday, February 22, 2007


Haha i'm so happy that i can't sleep.

Nothing else in this world can get me down at this moment. This is what i lived for...


Thursday, February 15, 2007

low and low and low...

This few days getting low, especially today, but it's definitely not because of Valentine's day, I'm not that lame.

Maybe because after reading Sturm Brightblade and Flint Fireforge unfortunate death, then caused me to have alot of negative feelings and thoughts.

In the books, both of them died quite sadly. Sturm died being killed by one of his, or rather the companions old time friend kitiara, whereas Flint die largely because of his old age and weak heart.

Their friends were naturally sad for awhile, but afterwards i guessed they tried to look at the positives.

Then again, how hard will it be to look at the positives? If one of my friends leave the world, can i just smile and said he fulfilled his purpose? Can i say another adventure begins for him? Nah i don't think so, don't think i can accept that fact.

Well maybe i'm childish, a kid, just like how laurana acted in the beginning. Hopefully my mindset will change in the future, anot it will be quite a hell of a time when someone leaves this world. Sad, but it's reality. Maybe i'll go first, then save me the trouble of all the pain and anguish. LOL, life, you'll never know...

Think i have to try to dispel these negative thoughts in my mind, chinese new year is coming man, have to think positive about the future. Ok shall stop the negative thoughts here, no more. HUAT ARH!

On a more serious note, i like this poem alot, well i guess i'll arrange it to be read out when i'm on my deathbed. But no, not yet, MY PURPOSE IN THIS WORLD IS NOT FULFILLED. My time is not up. I hope not, i wanna live for at least 60 more years, there's still alot of things i've not yet done.

For now, here's the poem:

Return this man to Huma's breast
Beyond the wild, impartial skies;
Grant to him a warrior's rest
And set the last spark of his eyes
Free from the smothering clouds of wars
Upon the torches of the stars.
Let the last surge of his breath
Take refuge in the cradling air
Above the dreams of ravens where
Only the hawk remembers death.
Then let his shade to huma rise
Beyond the wild, impartial skies.

Saturday, February 10, 2007

What to do from here on..

After a rather unexpected short stint working for Car Times, i was relieved of my duty permanently until they needed help with work.

In short, i was sacked. LOL

So look to the bottom right of the page, and see the first tag, if you want any 4 numbers from the owner of the tag, remember to msg me. She can see things other people can't.

Can't really say i'm sad to get sacked, but just a little bit of disappointment i guess. Then again, i'm free to do whatever i want now. Play mahjong and all that kind of stuff, time in workplace passes quite slow too.

My first job, quite an eye opener i must say, how people perceive work, how they respond, and the little little things you notice from people working in office.

Got me thinking if i really want this kind of life when i enter the society. Maybe the mentality now is that of a part timer, and hopefully that will change in the future. For now, i don't see the fun or motivation of going into office everyday, and most probably repeating the same process of work every now and then. Even if the motivation is there, I don't see how i would be able to maintain that kind of motivation to work hard 24/7, week in week out for the company. Wealth? Fame? Seems stupid and low but still essential in today's life.

Haha, who knows man, maybe 10 years down the road i will be reading this post, laughing to myself.

Nothing much to do with the small amount of $250, so i decided to spend majority on dragonlance. Indulge myself in the world of Krynn, take my mind off these thoughts. Then have to get some new year clothings also, of course the pay don't say le, confirm deficit. But 1 year buy clothes 1 time so nvm. Then mahjong time with darrell before he returns to Australia.

Make the most out of the sack, and most probably i won't be going back to the company if needed le. Don't feel needed anyway, haha. Time to sleep then...