A long long loooooonnngggg weekend...

Getting all hyped up for the marathon tomorrow night, it's gonna be a super long WALK. HAHA, i think i'm the most unprepared participant. Due to the injury couldn't really train for it, so yeah, i'll try my best to finish it before sunrise.

In the so called more "important" stuff, is the adding of a new link. Now i don't know how many girls read my blog, don't think alot la hor, nobody interested to stalk me also. Anyway, guys also can la, intro your girlfriends to the link. Just click on the link on the right, so many don't know which one? Sorry if you're so stupid you should just click the close button top right, you got no right to visit my website! BUT you can visit that particular one, don't need to be clever just need money.

Countdown to Euro 08, can't wait to see all the players in action...

Ouch...

Just reach home, abit tired, and painful. Hahaha still smiling at a comment, “很痛，背后很多刀。"

This few days have been passing by so slowly, couldn't really sleep unless i'm tired. Maybe someday i'll blog about it.

I stand alone? It's really quite hard...

3 years ago this day...

Without a shadow of a doubt, the best night of my life. A night full of emotions, on a plane traveling at the speed of light from hell to heaven.

The words "game well, and truly over." , i can still hear it echoing in my head. It must be truly painful for all liverpool fans throughout at that point of time. The rest, as everybody knows, is history.

On a random note, some pictures from the villa yesterday, woke up today then realise i never take picture of myself. A bit wasted, you don't see me wearing formal very often.

Even the toilet sink also so unique, water don gush out, it flows...

All tvs in the villa are of this size, i think the length of the tv is longer than me with arms stretched.
A swimming pool at the back, and that's where they exchanged the vows.

In my opinion the best part of the villa, the bedroom toilet, bloody hell its bigger than the bedroom.s
Look at the bath tub man. For your info the right side of the toilet is blocked by the door there, so it's much bigger than it seems. That's what you get for a 2k per night villa man.

In instanbul we won it 5 times...

Congrats....

I just came back from edwin and pei li zeh zeh(my cousin) wedding. Although was feeling moody the whole day, due to the bloody weather, manage to switch to one of my better mood as the wedding dinner near.

Parents was needed for the tea ceremony, so had to leave early, right after i came back from my driving lesson. Reached sentosa quite early, and the villa was quite impressive, the toilet was bloody freaking big, even bigger than the bedroom itself. The price was even bigger, close to 2k a night. 2k, omg, that's like to and fro from singapore to liverpool.

When the finished signing the whatever cert you called it and were officially married, many of them were saying that i'm next, just because my cousin tony was studying in australia, and the spotlight was suddenly all on me. Sorry man they can wait like another 10 years. 1. no girlfriend. 2. Not so early, maybe around the age of 30. so they can wait another 10 years or so.

Any marriage i attend, can't do without wine, so i just kept drinking and drinking and drinking(at least 15 glasses) i think, cannot really keep track of everything.

And now, i'm feeling the effects of the wine, hahaha, quite smooth, that's why i manage to down so many glasses. I think the waitress is sick of asking me "another glass of wine sir?", because its always the same "yes thank you" answer.

Wishing my cousin a happy marriage, and a wonderful honeymoon in europe. Now all the 2nd generation of the family has gotten married, time to pass on the baton...

Maybe i drank a little too much, hahaha...

把爱传出去。

Have been watching this on the taiwan channel today, some fundraising activity organised for callers to call in, with various people from the entertainment circle receiving the calls and helping to urge the citizens to donate more.

More and more touching stories being told every passing day. All of these stories, shows that there's hope for humans. In times of adversity, the actions by certain individuals are really encouraging.

Watching those scenes, really makes one feel helpless. I think it's time to start training and getting fit. Once i get out of that bloody useless place, which don't even seemed like doing anything, then i can maybe do something about it, like go help in the rebuilding process. The damage caused, looked like it'll take at least a decade to fully recover.

So true....

What a crappy year.

Even before half the year has passed, the number of shit things that happened had already surpassed all the bad things in the past 5 years.

Didn't do much today, except watching the news, and it was a damn freaking bad mistake to even look at it. Saw the live coverage of rescuers trying to rescue children buried under a school which collapsed. Many had their limbs amputated, and you could just see the fear and pain in their eyes. freaking 9 10 years old with a long life ahead of them, what are they gonna do without their hands and legs. One of them who got both his hands amputated said "How am i going to write without my hands?" Painful stuff to watch.

Haiz...

Wow i'm out...

Very very very surprised that i could escape today, so early in the afternoon some more. It's like once in a purple moon. Stoned for half an hour before realising that it was no playout, then all started moving off.

Earlier swam 50 laps, coming in 1 person slower, cannot kio the bloody prize. AIYA NO KIOO. After that quite seh already, since its been a long time since i exercise, and with the bloody freaking 35 degree weather, i think, got a headache.

Anyway, went back home, sleep with air con, and i still bloody sweat more than during the swim. Piss off, taught sister some maths, EVEN MORE PISS OFF, but being the nice brother that i am, i never shout at her. Not according to my definition of shout that is. After that is rotting time, arranging my music, too much already.

This few weeks had been quite disastrous, and looks to carry on into the olympics, or nearer euro 08. First was the myanmar disaster, then an earthquake from nowhere comes out in China. Looking at the live coverage of those news is really heartbreaking. Many dead, living so many others behind, and many many others homeless, without food, water, shelter. China looks impressive though, mobilising so many people within such a short period of time. Junta? motherfucking pieces of shit who have their places reserved and booked, no prize for guessing where.

To all those, whose sacrifices can only be seen by heaven...

On 5th may 2008...

Liam Harker lost his fight with cancer, and passed away at 4pm. No miracle, even though i'm sure many are wishing for it deep down inside, me included.

The famous quote from Bill Shankly, "football is much more important than life and death" caused quite a debate when people die.

Of course it gets put into perspective when you see a kid as young as 17 year old dying of cancer, but what did he wish for during his remaining days alive? To put on the famous red shirt and be buried together with it.

When hillsborough tragedy struck, what happened? The only remedy to it, a soccer match dedicated to the 96, for the club they so dearly loved and lost their lives supporting.

Liam harker my friend, although we have never met, your actions and bravery have touched all reds worldwide. You reminded us, the fans, the players, and the idiots in control what the liverpool shirt is all about, and what it represents when we wear it, be it out in the streets, or in our Anfield fortress supporting our club. You taught us all an invaluable lesson, and we will never forget it till we draw our last breath. A shame though that we couldn't win it for you to march on to Moscow. Now that you're free from pain, i'm sure you'll be watching and blessing us from above with shanks and pais and co., to win number 19th next season.


1990-2008

When you walk through a storm
hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm is a golden sky

And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.

Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.

Return this man to Huma's breast
Beyond the wild, impartial skies;
Grant to him a warrior's rest
And set the last spark of his eyes
Free from the smothering clouds of wars,
Upon the torches of stars.
Let the last surge of his breath
Take refuge in the cradling air
Above the dreams of ravens, where
Only the hawk remembers death.
Then let his shade to Huma rise,
Beyond the wild, impartial skies.

Family ties...

As the saying goes, blood is thicker than water.

I'll say that's bullshit, in my context. I feel so lucky, to have great parents, it's really better than striking 4D, because the people around them are FUCKED UP. My uncles, my aunties, even my grandmother.

Ever since I could think, my mother tried to instill the "they are your elders, respect..." thinking into me. Maybe it worked when i was young, but not anymore. To think that they are constantly bullying her, and she had to put up with them and STILL tell me to respect them. PUI!

My uncles, HA, can challenge for the world's top 10 negative value man in the whole bloody world. Take drugs, again and again and again, finally a very good reason to pay tax, and that's to keep fuckers like him inside jail or whatever rehabilitation center so that he won't cause trouble for my father. He's out for awhile now, marrying a prostitute in the process, and thus creating many other problems for us too. Everyone thought he would work since now he has a family(stupid or what), most probably relies on my grandmother's money to survive. If you were me, you would be so tempted to buy drugs and feed him again, just for him to go back into that crap hole he came out from.

The other one, even worst, his gf sticked with him for don't know how long, like ever since i was a small boy. People call that love, i call that pure stupidity, and she sure qualify for Forbes Stupidest List. When my grandfather was alive, a call and he can gather the family under 10 mins. They would always come and gamble, then leaving my mother to clean up the mess. Then nvm that bastard called his friends to our house to play mahjong, then cheated his own family members of their money.

Everytime he call, there's always a very long story, with the same objective: money. His wife just gave birth to a girl, and for some reason they came out to singapore to give birth, even when they decided to do it in malaysia, then tell us no money no place to stay. In the end all the idiots push to my father here again, use my house for their "UN conference". Don't know what happen in the end, just don't wanna see them. My auntie still come and tell me the baby girl very cute, come on with this type of father he'll just be her personal pimp. Can cheat own brother's money what else can't he do.

These fuckers can just go to hell, i don't care.

However, there are those that cared about me, or once cared about me. For example my grandmother, if she wasn't, she'll just be a bitch who keeps on picking on my mother, causing my parents to quarrel etc etc. Even though now i never really care about her because of the way she is acting, but still feel a little guilty. After all she was the one who looked after me and took care of me when i was young.

This is totally like the local serials, where you always wished the bad guys die, and die horribly for the wrongs they committed, but then this main actor/actress will come and plead for them because of their ties or whatever reason. I think all these plots are taken from real life scenarios man.

When the mind and the heart can't agree, what do you do?

If they didn't treat me so well...

Get well soon....

Today went for driving, and shall not bore everyone with what happened at driving, just that my instructor almost heart attack, even though i didn't see the danger, oh well...

After that went to find a new pair of running shoe, more or less decided what i wanted, but too bad no stock, so the assistant recommended a new pair, test test, then ok lor, even though not very nice. 5 mins and i'm done.
Ta ma de realise there's a blue colour de(mine's orange, or maybe red). Oh well, doesn't matter, swift, deadly, accurate. That's the important thing.

After that went to have some bnj, gave big big scoops, and discount too. Thank you!

Then received msg from father, so rush over to the hospital to visit my uncle. From suntec to is really freaking far, and a normal person would have took 1 hour++, too bad i'm not normal and was practically running, so got there in like half an hour++.

Went up to the ward and saw my uncle reading book. He looked like he aged alot in these few days, and it really pains me to see all the tubes and crap inserted into his body. The same feeling all over again. Was quite speechless at the time, so just asked him how he's doing and everything.
He told me to take care of myself and not get myself sick. Stayed for awhile after that and left, told him i'll see him again tmr.

I left feeling very down, and legs so shaky, not sure from all the blood i'm seeing, or from the pain i felt that he suffered. Life is so cruel sometimes, to liam harker, to my uncle, to katherine sis in law father, heck even lampard's mum, and the so many others out there. I know these things happen, i just wished they didn't. Childish i know, but i can't take pain, physically or mentally. A poem from Lemmo taken from rawk:

The Liverpool flag flutters proud
and gently in the breeze
Life goes on
but life will never freeze
life stands still
but still goes on
life is love
for the ones we love...

There are times for passion
there are times for doubt
there are messages of sympathy
and there are mesages of hope
there are times for silence
when there is peace in the air
there are times when we need to be together
the need to be there...

we've all learned a lesson
here these past day or two or more
it's that friends can be close
closer and also far away, which is hard to endure
friends can be a name on a banner
and not just face to face
we've also learned just how precious life can be
when we can be here today
and tomorrow we're just a page in history
like the mighty redmen
that we so proudly follow each week
as they look for the glory
that we all so desperatley seek...

it's not that easy
no one will ever know
the pressure on the mighty redmen
for their passion to us all to show
they are all here for a reason
that is well known
they are here for US:
We will Never Walk Alone...

Deep down i just wanna cry...

Bold = i think it's damn true

What Desmond Goh Means

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.<br /> You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I'm so freaking proud of you guys :)

Absolutely gutted, we more than matched chelsea, both the team and the fans. When we equalised i seriously thought we had them in the bag.

Just so painful to eat them then spit them out for them to eat us.

The onslaught in the first half of extra time was too hard to bear, but we never gave up, and throw every fucking crap we could at chelsea. Still, it wasn't our day, the penalty not given for hyypia foul, for fuck sake even andy gray said it was a penalty.

Then babel hit a 40 yard screamer, and you could not help but wonder and hope, drawing strength from the past experiences.

In the end, when the fourth official raised the board signaling 1 minute of extra time, I finally admitted defeat. 1 min was the time it took for the substitution of lampard to take place, not extra time.

Drogba had one hell of a game, good for him such a waste that he has to resort to all the diving when he is so much better than that.

Lampard, was poor, but i guess he deserved that goal, nothing better to heal yourself with a goal. What i detest is how everyone goes hype over his goal. Everyday people lose their loved ones and carry on with their work, dirk kuyt's done that, titi camara's done that. He scored a penalty kick which even i can score, so i don't see why everybody is going crazy over him. Lay off him and let him deal with it. Don't need to suck somebody balls when they lose someone so dear, it's not going to be any easier.

Just can't help but think about all the missed chances and that infamous own goal, seems like our gingerhead is gonna be sold. Been poor whole season.

Congrats to Chelsea, hopefully they go on to kick the scums asses. A quote that sums up the feeling after the game:

For today i hope the earth open up and swallow Chelsea Football Club. For tomorrow and the rest of this season, i will be chelsea's biggest fan.

We have seen the glory, and i believe we will see it again.