for him...the gates had opened

gone with the wind

2010-12-31T14:13:00.002+08:00

And i've officially moved, in fact i've moved for a very long time, just didn't want to disclose it here, and i doubt anyone comes in here anymore.

Happy 2011 people and this place shall be the keeper of memories during the period where i forged many bonds with many others...

looks back

2009-06-20T00:22:00.002+08:00

It's been such a long time that i've neglected this place, and finally i'm back. I doubt anyone even comes here anymore.

Oh well guess i should just leave it as it is. Maybe coming back in occasionally, reminiscing. Time flies, people change, the world revolves.

AHHHHHHHHHHH so bored.

Don't buy the sun.

2009-04-15T06:56:00.002+08:00

20 years ago this day, tragedy occured and 96 liverpool fans went to a football match and never returned home. Gone but never forgotten, you'll never walk alone.

It's been awhile...

2009-03-05T02:53:00.002+08:00

It felt so long since i last blogged, but it's just 1 month only. Life has been about rotting these few weeks, will attempt to work when i come back from Europe.

Anyway, some sad news, even though i'm not sure if anybody ever comes here anymore, but i'm contemplating closing down this blog. The day that i started this blog, was because of the man up there, and now, the story has come to an end after a good, probably 8 9 years. I'm not sure if i could bring myself to do it.

Dragonlance was a part of my teenage life, and it's just a shame that the stories are coming to an end, all that's left is the lost chronicles of the one and only, raistlin majere.

It has been a real pleasure entering the world of krynn. Watching Tanis and co. fight tarkhisis, then their children coming into the world, fighting chaos, then the plot of stealing the world, the appearance of Mina, and eventually her choice to become a god of neutral.

It's such a pity, that there probably won't be another book in this world that fascinates me as much as margaret weis and tracy hickman.

And so the beings of krynn went to dreamland , with the gods and the 3 moons watching over them.

天下无不散之宴席

2009-02-03T20:05:00.006+08:00

And so, another 1 of our brother left for Australia. How time flies, the last time i remembered, it was darrell leaving like 4 years ago? It was with a heavy heart, maybe because we're were still young then, and Australia seemed like very far away.

Fast forward, and today it's cheelim's turn. Similarly, the feeling is still there, but somehow it just seem different. Australia don't sound very far and strange anymore, he seemed to be just a drive away, although we still have to fly a few hours, but he don't seem so distant at all.

Maybe as we grow, we accustom ourselves to people coming and going, and people leaving the country for a good few years are inevitable, be it schooling or working in the future. The scary part is instead of feeling sad, we feel numb, hope this doesn't happen though.

We'll definitely miss him, growing up together and having the best days of our life together, who wouldn't. Can't wait for him to come back after the short term, it'll be fun.

YAYYYYYYY

2009-01-15T21:32:00.001+08:00

Life is not all gloom afterall. AT LEAST, I GET TO FULFIL ONE OF MY DREAMS.

ANFIELD HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

The year 2008.

2008-12-24T21:03:00.002+08:00

Haha it's been exactly 1 month since i posted here, the last being a post from india. So here i go, looking back at the year 2008.

A year of work, or should i say fun, ok not exactly fun, but not exactly useful too, whatever la. The most place i've visited in a year. Nz in feb, which was great. Phuket in march, damn fun too. My first time stepping into HK territory in July/August? and thoroughly enjoyed myself. Then to India, which kinda suck, but its all over so looking back it doesnt suck that much. Then phuket penang again, which was very refreshing and relaxing.

Year 2009 approaches, a bad year for dragons apparently, fan tai sui, and should stop drinking/gambling, wonder what i can do, LOL. Half a year of studies await, and i'm not even sure if i could get back to mugging, it seemed so long ago. BUT FIRST, going on another few trips before school starts. Looking at Holland, taiwan/hk, shanghai, hmm still thinking whether i should pay a visit to wudang, HAHA. Have to take the financial crisis which is hitting spore soon into account. EVERYBODY HAS NO MONEY AND ITS GETTING TO ME. Maybe i'm peer pressured into being poor.

Hahaha, a boring christmas eve, i can imagine an even more boring christmas. OH WELL, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.

My single best moment of Liverpool

2008-11-24T14:12:00.000+08:00

I'm quite bored at the moment, and since it's been awhile since i updated, decided to take some time to talk about this particular topic, and to take my mind off the disappointing draw last night.

So take note, here comes a post from incredible india. HAHAHA

There are so many special moments which i remembered like it was yesterday, the "michael owen" fa cup final, the 5-4 thriller UEFA cup final, the champ league semi final with chelsea when gudjohnsen missed that sitter, and the 35 yard strike by gerrard at the "Steven Gerrard" FA cup which got me screaming at the top of my lungs(the weird part being me watching it at home alone).

Theone that stands out for me as a younger generation fan who did not get to witness the brilliance of the 70s and 80s, is still Istanbul. I still remember quite clearly, me sneaking up in the middle of the night, slowly opening my door, and tiptoeing to the living room(not that it would matter later).

Got my eyes adjusted to the brightness of the tv for awhile, and the match was on the way. 1st half ended in an instant, 3-0, and the words of andy gray repeated in my mind over and over again when it went to commercial, "game well and truly over". I felt sick, i was close to tears, i hate kaka for being so damn good, and like every liverpool fan watching the game that night, we prayed to the higher power above, please, no more. I guess if there was a devil trading a goalless 2nd half, many would have considered taking it. Milan was a class apart that first half, fact.

Of course, i was thinking fuck it, i better get some sleep, i've got freaking school in the morning. Something that day kept me awake, it was just not the liverpool way, wherever you are, be it in the stadium, in the pub, or at home, that's not the way liverpool fans react. NEVER.

2nd half, and the players started running onto the pitch, and i don't think they caught the part where the travelling kops belted out our famous theme. It would have been nice to see the looks of the milan fans, sorry mates, we are a class apart.

Dietmar hamann on, can't remember to replace who, to be honest i was still in a daze and was afraid of watching. 2nd half on the way, and hamann brought composure to the team, and immediately, you could see how clever he is, protecting the back 4, neutralising the kaka threat.

Through a stroke of good luck, riise manage to send a cross in from the left, and in the middle of the penalty box, stands our skipper, who jumps and cooly guides it into the top right corner of the goal. YES, get in man, you could see the fire in our captain's eyes, looking for the travelling kop, and signalling to them and the team, this is for you, come on let's do this.

I still believe that if it was somebody else scoring that goal, we wouldn't have been able to make that comeback, that's how influential Stevie G is. To digress abit, it's his 10 years at the club since making his first team debut, congrats and hope long may it continue.

Then as they say, the rest is history. Smicer smacking one in from outside the box, and stevie G again, bombing into the box before being fouled by gattuso. PENALTY. The nerves, i can't imagine how the player react to the tension and atmosphere when taking a penalty. I can't even bear watching(oh yes i've off the tv during a penalty before, then on it after a liverpool player takes it), and he has to place the ball, and feel the millions of eyes on him before he takes the shot.

3-3, what a comeback, extra time, serginho is dangerous down the right, and stevie G was instructed to defend that area. He totally pawned serginho, and looked like he had been a right back all his life, so comfortable, so easy, so natural.

Then the last notable chance, was shevchenko miss in front of goal. Ball fell to shevchenko in the penalty box, he shoots, dudek saves, and the ball fell back to shevchenko. Time at that moment stop, i stopped breathing, staring helplessly as shevchenko hit the rebound, and out of nowhere, dudek's hands managed to make contact and keep it out. I still held my breath even after the ball went out for the corner. Watched the replay, and still couldn't believe my eyes, from then on, i know, no. 6 is coming home.

The emotions, the euphoria, the ups and downs, all in 1 night, i'm very sure it's the greatest night of my life. The image of steven gerrard lifting the trophy, i won't forget it ever.

So that's it for my best moment, i can't wait to get home, i miss everything, absolutely everythnig.

YYYEEEESSSSS

2008-10-27T12:59:00.002+08:00

FUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKINGGGGGGGGGGGG GETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT INNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!

Totally. Magical.

GET BUCKKKKK INNN HEREEEEEE.

Superb performance, everyone was a hero tonight, every single one. Our passing was especially good, short, slick, classy. Defending world class, wonderful going forward, reira had a cracker, but so did alonso carragher agger aurelio mascherano gerrard, great team effort.

This will last me til i come back from india, definitely. It's been a long time since my heart pounded as hard as last night, fortunate not to get a heart attack.

Flying on a freaking wednesday morning 0730, so had to be there like 0500. Very good test for people who want to know who their true friends are. 0500, who's busy at this time? HAHAHA

Glad we didn't sell Alonso, so so glad.

Haiz...

2008-10-18T01:34:00.003+08:00

Rotting at home on a friday night, damn sian. Right now feel like going for a spin, but so many factors make me wanna stay at home and try sleep instead.

1. Fucked up allocation of car park slots. Every night car park slots are full downstairs, which meant i had to park at the multi storey carpark, AT THE FREAKING ROOF SOME MORE. Ridiculous, i cannot park under my house.

2. Alot people on the roads on weekends, which meant there would be alot alot of traffic jams, and i hate it.

3. Companion, actually this is not very important, i would say that point no.1 is more important, but still quite bored to drive alone right. That says alot actually, coming from a loner. HAHHA

Conclusion, don't drive if you can't find a parking slot. I would place that above the "don't drive if you drink". Of course, i don't drink drive, even though i'm quite sure i can pull it off. Something like 35miu g per 100ml breath or sth like that, still in the process of figuring how many drinks that is and how long it would take for the alcohol to wear away, 0.015 an hour or sth like that.

Haiz, i can still remember you clearly...

"without killing anyone, we won it 3 times..."

2008-10-01T00:30:00.002+08:00

According to Kay's article, the man utd PLAYERS, i repeat PLAYERS, were heard and seen singing this shit during their win in Moscow.

WTF.

Seriously, I am so disturbed by this that i've lost all respect for those classless cunts. Players to do this, omg man, i still can't take in the magnitude of the whole situation.

Sure its bad enough when fans sing about tragedies, BUT PLAYERS, talk about being ambassadors for their club and their profession, bollocks.

Article had been use to bring up the disgraceful chants by both sets of supporters at the merseyside derby. The bitters obviously with their same old chant, labelling liverpool as murderers for killing their own fans, which should not even be heard in the first place. Then liverpool decided to retaliate "2-0 to the murderers" chant. It would have been class to see the reaction on their face, but being ambassadors of a club of such history and passion, i'm guessing that alot are regretting their actions during the match.

Sure, derbies are filled with intense passion and rivalry, but to go on singing and making a joke out of people who lost their lives. Unnecessary.

Of course, we may so conveniently argue that the media HAS ALL ALONG been against us, the shit and abuse that had been thrown at us over the years were never ever reported, but once LIVERPOOL FANS say something, it gets onto the headlines. BUT BUT BUT, are we classless? Are we so bitter that we blame everything else except ourselves for being a failure? I hope our fans take a long hard look at ourselves and be shamed for what we did out there.

1 point i strongly agree though, if it had been liverpool players doing that instead of the united players, I bet we'll get ban from europe again.

Fucking scums, i've never had so much hatred for them before. Don't know why they have so many supporters, probably glory hunters.

Talk about glory hunters, the papers were talking about ferrari this ferrari that, interviewing people and millions of them supporting ferrari and kimi, because he's cute. OMG you'd have thought ferrari bought advertising rights for the whole day edition. Total lack of respect to the other teams.

WHAT A FUCKING WAY FOR THEM TO END THE RACE.

I'm so freaking happy, and the icing of the cake was when fernando alonso won it. I just got a hunch, so much so that i wore it to work on saturday, then to see him drop out of qualifying, so gutted for him.

He said he needed a miracle, well he got 1 on raceday, so delighted for him, and renault. I hope they can build on this and bring back their former glory. I really really really really hope he stays.

Fernando, the future is bright, don't leave man.

I think fernando's return has spur the whole team to work extra hard and the win is the reward of their effort. I was so excited because singapore's track is not about horsepower, you need skill and torque, that means alonso and renault.

I can't really describe how happy i am with the derby win, then the grand prix win. OMFG.

FUCK OFF SCUMS AND FERRARI.

Super belated bday present? hari raya present? CHRISTMAS?? hahaha

2008-09-26T17:34:00.001+08:00

I Like:

Porsche Design CL

YESSSSSS

2008-09-14T01:18:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha, i'm sure you can guess what i'm so happy over. It's such a long overdue win against the scum, that i almost forgot how it felt like.

When i heard that torres and gerrard was injured at first, i got this hunch that we would win, didn't place bets even though i walked pass singapore pools these few days. Guess this kind of league football betting really doesn't appeal to me. No money, ever won can replace the feeling euphoria when i see liverpool scoring or winning a game. One of the things money can't buy.

I wasn't complaining about the line up, it was strong, it was good, and i felt that with the line up we can win. 3 mins gone and we let in a goal, it was stupid, players were sleeping, and mascherano was at fault for not tracking back...BUT WHAT A GAME HE HAD AFTER THAT.

Dirk kuyt had absolutely a stormer of a game, even though his touch was woeful at times, today he made it up with his constant harassing of the defenders. Riera, looks like a very good buy, something that the team doesn't have, sublime touches here and there, and i think he showed something that the team have been screaming for: confidence. It's been awhile since i saw a liverpool player with such confidence, hope he turns out good.

Finally something to brag about in front of the scums, suffered under them for quite some time already. Hahaha, still it only lasts a week, its just another 3 points, and hopefully, HOPEFULLY.

THIS WILL BE OUR YEAR

End of the 7th month...

2008-08-30T21:04:00.002+08:00

In a flash, or maybe just to me, since i've been doing fuck all for the past 1 and a half year, 7th month passed.

As the years goes by, the decline of these traditions become more evident. Not much ge tai around anymore, just a few tentages set up here and there for people to jia tok, not to mention about the operas that was so common all around everywhere in the past.

From a personal point of view, the feeling of being paranoid over almost anything during this month seem to get lesser and lesser as i grow up. Sure i still have the goosebumps when i go to the toilet in the middle of the night, eerily quiet at work, and the place is a perfect set up if you want to film a horror supernatural movie, but its not as strong as before.

In the past, we were always told not to talk crap during the 7th month. Now, we joked about them coming out for holiday, peak period for everything etc etc. Of course there are still superstition of what not to do during the 7th month, but would we still not do it if not for our parents warning. Tv also ran out of ghost horror movie to air, i remember in the past it was so overhyped that everyday the tv can't do without a ghost.

OR maybe i'm so holed up in my house these past weeks that i'm not concerned with everything that happens outside. Hahaha, this looks more higher probable.

Seemed like i'm starting to treat the 7th month like any other month now, except that there's some rituals to be done. It doesn't sounds scary to me anymore, just more people on the roads. If a small group gather around some ulu area and talk about ghost stories, i'll still freak out, whether its new year or christmas, but the legendary feel of the 7th month seemed to have lost its X factor.

Oh well, guess i can only confirm this this time next year...

WHAT A BEAUUUUTYYYYYYY...

2008-08-25T15:18:00.002+08:00

Watched the replay of the liverpool game vs middlesbrough since i missed it on saturday night. Previously already watched the highlights on the com, but still could not hide my delight when liverpool equalise, and the winner right at the end, even if it was a replay, it did not stop me from jumping up from the bed and scream. I bet the whole Anfield ground shook, there was no reason to not celebrate as wildly as the people in the stadium. WHAT A GOALLLLLL!!!

Getting some post match comments from the fans, realise the referee was shocking, to the point that he could be charged for either his abililty to officiate, or blind to everything else except his favourite scum united. Treating everyone in the world as idiots, and then launch a respect campaign, talk about hypocrites.

I've never liked epl referee, even when i tried so hard to tell myself that these people are humans, that they make mistakes, but it just gets worst because their decisions are so ludicrous, that sometimes you wonder if they really understand the rules of the game.

To give an advantage to play on, and realise the team is in danger of scoring a goal after making use of the advantage, then changing his mind and calling it as a foul. Disgraceful refereeing, seriously.

I bet you never foresaw that goal by our captain marvel. RIGHT IN YOUR FACE BASTARD!
HAHAHAHAHA, bet his head hurts now after banging walls the whole night.

steve gerrard gerrard, can pass a ball 40 yards.
He's big and he's fucking hard, steve gerrard gerrard...

here comes fernando alonso....

2008-08-18T13:20:00.002+08:00

Hahaha, today went for the test, which was like quite scary. The leg was shivering all through the test, and i put in a performance worthy of an oscar. Driving at a super slow speed, that even the tester also complain why i so slow.

Since he already say slow already then i have to compromise lor, show him abit of speed. Then when the whole thing ended he ask me why i drive so slow, striaght away "SAFE MA". HAHAHAHAHHA, roll eyes lor.

Then after that waited for a damn long time, the test was like only 25 mins. Watch some video, then went to process the license. OMG computer system down, wth, doesn't that like only happen in saf? Nothing to do so i waited lor, i don't wanna go back again also.

Finally, long awaited, time to perfect the parking skills already, totally different. Then maybe if cheap go and learn more indept how to race.

My shot for olympic gold...

2008-08-17T23:21:00.003+08:00

HAHA, it's my turn tomorrow, psyching myself up for the final. I can't afford to fail now, need to wait a very long time for the next one.

Come on phelps(don't really like you, i like thorpedo more), nadal, bolt, and xiang xiang, that's the only few that comes to my mind immediately, give me some inspiration, hahahaha.

P.S. Sandra Izbasa is damn pretty, in fact most of the gymnast today are quite pretty.

my club my view

2008-08-11T21:25:00.002+08:00

Don't know if i have the time to make this a long entry, got a little less than 20 mins to finish this.

Same as every other year, the season is drawing near, and with that comes renewed faith and belief, that this would be the year that we lift no.19. "This could be our year", i've heard it so many times already, but i never got sick of it.

The acquisition of robbie keane is an exciting prospect, though i suspect that he'll take sometime to settle. There's some worrying signs while watching the pre season friendly with i can't remember which team, but we beat them 4-0. Still, i hope they'll gel every day since then and well, what can 1 pre season game tell? The massive overhaul of the academy system seemed to be paying off now, and some people just don't realise the work that rafa and co. has been putting in.

Read some forums and realised that some british are also worried that the sport is on the decline. It's quite interesting, since i've never really thought about it. To them, it's part of their life, and for them to say that their love for the sports have been dwindling is quite worrying. The money that's going into the game is just crazy, and many feels that footballers are detaching themselves from reality, from society. They are not part of the society anymore, living a closed doors lifestyle due to the intense scrutiny of the media(and some crazy people some are).

Strange that we, or maybe it's just me, that we don't view these footballers as humans. They are like something that appears on tv every weekend, and with their names on the jerseys of so many people in the streets. Many are also worried that these people gets their characters and personality questioned because of how well they can control a ball on a field. I guess that's the price they have to pay for the international recognition.

Oh well, hopefully this season i have something to cheer about.

百万大歌手

2008-08-10T21:01:00.002+08:00

I became quite addicted with this show, i think the US or whoever copied this show from taiwan, title is forget the lyrics or something like that.

The contestants get to choose song categories, then choose a song from inside that category to sing, then at any point he/she has to complete the sentence for that song. Damn funny some of the contestants, then get to hear nice songs too, alot of classic oldies in particular.

Today they showed the newbie xiao jing teng, and F.I.R lead singer, fei er i think. I just realise she's quite cute, not very chio, but just got that something there. hahahaha.

I'm quite bored, suddenly has an urge to do stuff that requires my brain to work, maybe it's time to start, warm it up since its been a long time, and i'm gonna need it soon.

A 10k word HK trip...

2008-08-03T00:56:00.004+08:00

Ok i think i never really blog about my hk trip, since the pictures were uploaded halfway and i gave up after that. It's really too tiring to bring all the picture up 1 by 1 , so i'll attempt to super summarise the trip. Here's the top 10 significant pictures that tells the story.

At number 10:

Don't look down on this small room lor, it's very important to us, since we shop like crazy. Even sleeping on the floor is shiok.

In 9th place,

I don't know where this idea originated from, but it's damn freaking fun la, to make arcade become so interactive, really puts singapore ones to shame. I can still remember jumping out of the seat when the game start.

Coming in 8th,

Something relatively new to me, the desserts in hk are totally different, more authentic in the ingredients they use. By the way the bowls were totally empty when we left, TOTALLY. EMPTY.

Close behind in 7th,

The places we went for sight seeing, like the avenue of stars, or the peak, or if you consider walking into unchartered territory accidentally with a map as sightseeing too.

Racing into 6th,

The culture of the people there are quite different. Everybody seem to be shouting and snapping at you, we may see it as rude, but that's the way of their life. This may seem to be just a picture of the food we ordered in a restaurant, but it's liked we begged them for this meal. No questions, just order your food, and at the same time they were staring us with the "you got money to pay??" look. But after eating, then we realise why their attitude so fucked up, because it was the best.

REALLY IS BUAY SIA LAN BUAY DUA LAN.

In the middle we have,
The picture says it all really. I never hear people shout for so long so loud before also. The place quite eerie, and i heard singapore has something like this too, and it's even scarier. BTW, i never shout lor, it's those guys screaming. HAHAHAHAHAHHA

The third runner up goes to,

As the saying goes, 人算不如天算（ren suan bu ru tian suan). What's a holiday without some danger? Haha, it was quite scary with the typhoon and all, could see the tides and waves on the waters quite unstable. Then again, would have liked to experience it, Singapore where got typhoon, in the hotel watching news still saw angmoh braving the winds on the roads, looks like fun. I think during that period the whole of HK our morale highest, rain also heck care nothing could dampen our mood.

Getting the 3rd place medal,

is something that Singapore doesn't have. XIU NGOR. If your motto is "live to eat and not eat to live", then this is a must try. If you're a carnivore like me, you'll love it. Thinking of a petition to allow goose into singapore. HAHAHA

The runner up,
This is not just a brand, also not just a 3 storey shopping store. It represents all the bloody places that i've walked to, and waited for them to be done with. HAHA, seriously i never ever shop so much in my life before, but actually it's quite fun also, see so many clothes, then go try and try and try. Sorry hor this only applies overseas, not in singapore. HAHAHA.

The number 1 picture which i thought was appropriate,

felt like in disney world, so happy, so fun, so unreal. It was really fun travelling together, especially with a bunch of jokers, haahaha. Here's to many many many more "disney" adventures.

OH OH OH OH, for a more detailed, or should i say for the full coverage of our trip, please visit essentialprint.livejournal.com, saves me alot of trouble. HAHAHAHA

Celebrating 2 decades...

2008-08-01T00:26:00.003+08:00

Haiz, OLD ALREADY.

The ten digit starting with a 2 don't look nice. Anyway, the hours leading up to my 2nd decade anniversary sucks.

Been told that i've to return to work tomorrow morning, afternoon, whatever la i just need to return. Obviously it's bloody annoying right, i took and asked for the day off 1 FUCKING MONTH before. Pissed off of course complain and whine and scold right, DO YOU REALLY EXPECT ME TO SMILE AND LAUGH?

Really is spoil my whole fucking day, now no need go back also damage done already.

Anyway my sister is really sweet. Today randomly just go J8 and pluck the liverpool jersey out of the adidas store and give me as present. Bloody shuang kuai, if i never remember wrongly this is the first birthday present she gave me. Hahaha, well there's always a first.

Looks like the digit 2 brings alot of crap into life, another few years spent studying, then most probably working like a headless mad chicken for the 2nd half of the decade. Don't know la life's unpredictable also.

Oh well, i guess the search for the meaning of life has just begun...

Simian line...

2008-07-27T21:23:00.002+08:00

Was feeling bored so went to check up on my palm after my auntie analyse my hand. Google it and realise that there's alot to palm reading, quite interesting.

http://www.handanalysis.com/survey_results.html

Saw this survey, and realise that some of the characteristics are quite similar, especially the part where our dreams come true very often, and having similar nightmares. Experts even say that people with simian line tends to go to the extreme, something like that.

Haha, interesting read to pass the day, maybe can research on it for fun, it'll be fun to see other people's palm, since it's like quite unique to each individual.

Flying...

2008-07-27T02:47:00.004+08:00

2 consecutive days having supper with mh, guess it'll be some time before we can do this again. It's quite hard to find a companion in those hours.

I guess at some point of time everyone will leave singapore for awhile, to explore the world, to fulfill their dreams, to work. Who knows maybe i'll go too, can't rule that possibility out, even though i hate adapting, and leaving, and not being able to eat all the food here.

Went to have dinner with my da yi, and found out that her husband, which is my uncle, don't know how to pronounce also, is not doing very well. It's quite worrying, and my father believed that the operation and the constant medication took alot out of him. Haiz, seeing him so sad and sian is just so uncomfortable.

Having quite a head spinning night after the nap, groggy and all. Quite a lovely night though, not very humid temperature just right.

Hope you find the golden sky without meeting the storm...

hectic week..

2008-07-25T20:10:00.002+08:00

Had a short week at work, wed was out already. Seemed to be a rather as usual day when suddenly andrew wilfred became so enthu about going to zouk, so i guess i had no choice but to follow. Still in the end, we were late and couldn't get in. Met more people outside of zouk than in the past month altogether. In the end went to mos and spent the night there.

Went home slept for like a few hours then woke up to go sentosa. Everybody was seh, as in us that were out last night. Reached sentosa like in the afternoon already, and the sun was quite bastard, damn freaking hot. Because of that crap 9pm show, they kept playing volleyball all the way. Brawn without brains, beauty(also not very chio) without plot, cannot make it la.

After that went to eat and walk around, by the time i reached home was already 9+. Took a shower, then shot dead on bed already. Morning woke up 6, went to ecp for the run, ended with a crappy knee, and slept.

I don't have enough time to sleep, much less finish my taichi show, got another show to watch already. Guess that'll keep me occupied for the coming months.

Tell me what am i suppose to do without you...

2008-07-23T18:08:00.002+08:00

This few weeks have just been pure boredom. Think i saved quite alot, stoning at home watching tv, maybe only a little increase in the electricity bills.

Realise i've been missing something crucial - football.

Every saturday feel so bored, so restless, flipping channels after channels. Really can't live without liverpool.

Oh my god can't wait for the freaking season to start. COME ON YOU REDSSS

Is there no more hope?

2008-07-16T20:50:00.003+08:00

With the gradual change in weather, and weird climate patterns, it seems like the world itself is coming to an end. The happening the movie, may seemed quite stupid, but you can't rule out these possibilities, you can never win mother nature.

For all mankind?

Does that really exist anymore? Just look at today's newspaper, a monk, put to shame, and you thought he doesn't care about the money. Maybe being in contact with all these luxuries swayed his mind, or maybe, he's doing all these for those really in need. Afterall, at least he doesn't have a gold tap and doesn't fly on business class, or does he?

Still i quite pity him, futile attempt by the newspaper to link him with all the porn videos seized in a house that he stayed occasionally. Something like that, couldn't be bothered to read on, people watch porn doesn't mean he'll watch right, hee embezzle money doesn't mean others will do the same also right.

In the past, people got through crisis because they had 1 thing -hope. Can we even do that now?

HK - airport

2008-07-09T20:17:00.005+08:00

As stated, these are the "wallpapers" stucked on the windows of the budget aeroplane, if you ever call it one.

Budget has its own class, even their sunrise is of low quality.

A rare picture depicting the true altitude we are flying at, look at the clouds, so far up.

Another fake.

Breakfast at changi airport.

Just a light one, just enough for our stomach to be empty when we touched down in hk.

You actually have to switched off your hp here at this place, in case it causes a massive power failure and communication glitch in the aeroplane if you went near it with a hp ringing.

I thought i could pretty much sleep anywhere.

I was so wrong. Don't be deceived by their excited faces, the period of time i slept( 15 -20mins) is DEFINITELY more than the period of time they were awake.

Hong Kong

2008-06-28T22:41:00.004+08:00

Let's start with the waking up part, was watching wimbledon on the tv, can't remember who it was against, and felt damn sleepy. I went to the com, chatted abit, and suddenly became damn awake. I went back to watching wimbledon, but then switched it off in the end to get some sleep, even though i wasn't very sleepy.

Dreamt that i was entering a club, and the song low was playing in the background. Then suddenly i jumped up and realised it was actually my hp alarm. I was so close to being late.

Bathe changed and took a stroll with my uncle to collect his taxi. The morning breeze woke me up, but i ended up sleepy when i was in the cab.

Reached the airport quite late, then went with the others to have breakfast after checking in, all the while trying to recall this guy who looked so damn familiar, but i just can't seem to remember. Then i saw a person whom i remembered at the whatever shop we went to. Apparently my signal sergeant in stagmont had orded long ago and going on a trip to thailand. It was like not even 5 and his flight was at 7.

First time taking Jetstar, and now i fully understand the meaning of the word BUDGET. All the way from the stewards/stewardess down to the freaking pilot, all NOOBS. Touched the outer part of the plane before i went in, show my appreciation first so that it'll give me a safe trip. HAHA. I am already considered an anyhow sleeper, meaning i can sleep almost anywhere any place. I had difficulty doing that on the plane, goes to show how crap the seats were. I was reading the book i brought on board, and when i heard a bang with a jerk of the seat i thought "oh shit what did we crash onto." Then realise this was the landing, this guy must be trained in the arcade, totally no skill at all. Alight already still have to take a 10 mins bus ride to the freaking airport to get through the custom, really is no class at all.

After collecting our stuff, we took the public transport, which consisted of trains and bus to our hotel.

Got to the hotel, changed out of the airport wear and off we went. Went to Tsim sha shui i think, had our first meal at a random teahouse. ROAST GOOSE, first time eating, katherine recommended, and it didn't disappoint. Definitely taste better than duck. Then we shopped and shopped and shopped AND shopped, technically is they, most of the time i only walk, went to so many places until i blur, shop until say want to go back hotel because of typhoon coming and we ended up in another shop. By the time we came out the shop the freaking typhoon was like an hour away. The relaxed crowd went some way to calm us down, typhoon only ma, still so many people on the streets with no sense of urgency, RELAX LA.

Then suddenly the streets became quite empty.

Shocked sia like suddenly with a snap of the finger everybody teleport away. Due to the relatively new surrounding we took cab back to the hotel instead.

Had a nice hot bath, and cooled down for like 10 mins, you know stretching all those, bloody vigorous activity, then spent some time watching the tv, they had nat geo and discovery, so quite interesting. Just like that, the first day flew by, except that through the night couldn't really sleep cause nick was like snoring damn loudly.

2nd day woke up at around 6+, then saw the rain, sian diao cannot go down walk, so went back to sleep til 8. Eunice came to wake us up, brush my teeth wash up ready to go, wah everybody not ready.

Many light years later.

We went off looking for breakfast, actually intended to buy food back to prepare for the typhoon, then buy everything already then realise opposite got teahouse open. In the end we still bought the food, and it ranked among one of the best meals of our trip later on.

I ate the sort of charsiew maggie mee, quite nice. After that when we went back to the hotel, the warning signal lowered already, so all decided to go shopping, anyway i don believe they'll stay in the hotel, with or without the typhoon hahaha.

Due to all the raining we had to amend our destination for the day so we decided not to go to disneyland, well sort of, we still went in the end, but not exactly. Anyway, WHAT BETTER WAY TO START THE DAY THAN SHOPPING.

Most of the time for me was walking still, can't really remember where we went to, nvm wednesday ended after me and nick hollanded into some highway already, had to take cab back to our hotel, quite ex some more because the distance travel damn long hahhaha. Fast forward to thursday.

Another rainy day, the thing that makes recalling the worst is because everyday rain, everyday walk, that i can't really remember which day is which, seemed like everyday typhoon also, only clear that thursday was drizzling and friday had clear weather Today we went to central, i think it's like the orchard of HK, all the branded stuff. Then there's this very very big 3 storey shop, omg alot of stuff.

Never really buy anything, everything is like cheap but not cheap enough, ask me to spend 50 60 dollars on a shirt needs alot considering. Don't know why also, just can't convince myself to buy. However eating is different, if the food is good its worth it.

After that its like already 4, and we decided to eat dim sum, since we haven't tried it since we reached hk. After searching and asking around for awhile, we went into 1 damn high class restaurant. Even the waiter, some old uncle, act like he king, waiting for us to serve him. We ordered those that were readable, and had to wait awhile before the food came. Everything about the restaurant fail, except the food. I think that was the best ever dim sum i've ever eaten. The shrimp so fresh, omg....

After that we decided to go the peak, walked to the bus stop and went up all the way, abit scary sia it's quite a long drop. Saw quite a few houses on the peak, don't know which celebrity one, isolated alone at some place faraway from the peak of the peak hahahha. After some photo taking, we decided to go to the wax museum, alot of the wax figures look damn real, until a point that it's scary, alot of dead celebrities also, goosebumps man. Doesn't help when need to go into some god damn freak house. Luckily being the cool me, those things and people don't scare me at all. AHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA.

After that we went up to the top to take some pictures, damn high, a very very long drop down man, don't think can find the body after the drop also. Stand there feel the clouds moving pass, quite nice, but the view afterwards got blocked by the clouds, so couldn't see much already.

We took a tram down, and decided to go back eat instant noodles for dinner, with char siew and xiu ngor as side dish, oh my freaking god mouth watering dishes. katherine and eunice went next door to buy the dishes while we drag all the stuff back.

Boiled water and proceed to cook our noodles, sitting on the floor eating the noodles with the roast goose and charsiew, oh my god, really is 不枉此生。I still think if we don't sit on the floor and eat it won't be as nice. HAHA

Due to the rain, we couldn't really go out, so had to make do with rotting. I went for a beer with nick downstairs, then after that came back cabin. As my mp3 no battery already, went over to sleep in katherine and jia room, thought they playing cards or what, in the end my book haven even read 20 pages all lights off already. Talk about not sleeping through the night, hahaha but i really is sleep floor sleep until very comfortable. That was the only night i slept through the whole night into the morning. Still made some stupid dream that i was late for book in, ma de.

Woke up to see the sun streaming through the gap between the windows, lie there stone awhile cause i was not suppose to make any noise unless i got tired of living. Soon after, the alarm clock rang, and very long after then they started waking up. We went down for dim sum, the cheaper version, which meant more food, actually i think alot more. Eat and eat and eat and eat, and it's like only $8, omg, another definition of daylight robbery.

Took quite awhile for us to digest, then went back hotel pack up. Stone and rot for awhile, then we went to take bus to go airport. It was a long long ride, reach airport already 4+. Eat lunch, or dinner, then we walk around and went to play arcade. Their arcade is damn freaking cool man, so totally unlike singapore one, alot of fun too.

Buy the wife's biscuit, checked in, buy donuts, then go departure wait to board plane already. Again, BUDGET really is BUDGET, you pay for the quality man. Board plane also must take a bus to the plane there, have to ownself freaking use my leg to climb up the plane. The stewardess also, bloody hell, stupid bitch don't even know what uniform she wearing come and act punk, really is no brainer omg, reminds me of my workplace. I think the pilot scared of heights also, because he took like half of the whole flight descending. The moment he reached the targetted altitude he start descending already, take so bloody long to touchdown omg, budget. I forgot to add that their engine really is like those F1 torro rosso or redbull car, cheapcheap cannot win race one. Maybe i should be glad i'm back in 1 piece. Still dare to announce "hope to serve you again".

Throw you.

By the time i reach home already 1+, damn lazy to do anything. Actually i wanted to seperate this post and add pictures together, but then i damn lazy again, took damn long to type this post la, i think this is the current record for the longest post ever in my blog. Well record are meant to be broken. I guarantee the next trip will be an even longer post. 1000 over pictures, maybe after posting 50 i kena ban already. HAHA

Back to earth...

2008-06-28T12:54:00.002+08:00

After an arduous journey, i am back from my holiday.

2 things that i experienced:

1. The distance i clocked in these 3 days, is more than the distance i walked in the past month. Maybe even 2 months, since i was injured and was basically a useless civil servant collecting your tax money.

2. According to point no.1, it meant that it was even more tiring than the freaking marathon. You know, the 42km one.

Holidays are fun, so far i haven't experienced an unfun one. Still i would rate this as the current number 1. Everytime i go on a holiday, i get this very weird but good feeling when i return. When i think back, it's like those periods were so childlike, no worries, no stress, no problems.

When the plane touched down in Singapore, boom. Everything comes back.

It's like a dream, and what a hell of a dream i had.

The next few posts would be trip related, don't know how long i would need to finish this journey, then again i'm not very good with words. I think this trip was good, bought a little bit compared to the others, that's for sure, and got myself alot of new names. Think it's damn true though, it's not about the places that you go, it's the people you go with.

I'm quite forgetful, forgetting people names, forgetting how i knew them, forgetting where i met them, and i hope its to remember times like this.

Making a name for myself in the history book, i'll be cursed man. HAHAHA

HK here i come...

2008-06-23T21:59:00.002+08:00

My last post before i depart for a short holiday in hk, can be considered the first time i went there, since the previous time i went was when i was 4, and i all could remember from that trip was me taking out the singlet i was wearing watching the dolphins perform at ocean park i think, the heat was terrible.

Fast forward 16 years, and preparing for my first trip without the family. Need to gain some experience before i can go backpacking.

Just like the 溏心风暴，when a part of the story ends, another part continues. Those bloody bastards are at it again.

Fucking drug addict create alot problem again, give what fucking chance, really something wrong with his character, so many opportunities so many chances, fuck you man rot in fucking hell.

I suggested with our very familiar and competent CNB, i still very helpful lor say i volunteer to call. My mother tell me don't talk rubbish my grandmother will hate me for the rest of her life. HAHAHA like i fucking care.

I feel so helpless, the stress is taking its toll on my father, and these bloody cunts still come and bother him. All i can do is like shut up, because i know if i snap, and it's really really been accumulating for quite long, hell is gonna break lose. The last thing i wanna do is add pain to that stress, so yeah, i'm trying reaaallll hard.

At least i won't be around to comment during my few days absence. Wouldn't it be nice if they just like disappear from this world, like that movie where the kid suddenly kidnapped by some alien and wiped away traces of his existence on earth, as if he wasn't born at all, i totally need that technology.

Air Supply from the heart tour 2008

2008-06-22T03:55:00.002+08:00

Today woke up damn early in the morning, still having a little after effects of the alcohol the night before, plus a little bit of insufficient sleep, was damn groggy and bumping into everything, couldn't really walk straight also.

Accompanied my parents for breakfast, which is like the wrong choice because i was so damn bloody pissed with the freaking hot and humid weather. Felt freaking crap with the sun shining down on me, so after eating a little went back home and continued to sleep.

Woke up then thought for awhile whether if i wanted to go for the concert. Didn't really took long, it's been a long time since they last came, i believed its a year or 2 years back, and i regretted for a long time for missing it, so off i went to j8 to buy ticket.

Met up with mh and his friend huiying in town and he drove us to expo for the concert, and all along i thought it was at kallang, luckily i didn't go along, anot sure screwed up.

Concert began, and the duo started belting out all the familiar hits, you've gotta respect them, 60+, and they still can jump around on stage, vocals still as good as ever. In all the concerts i went, i guessed this crowd was the most happening one, they reacted very well to the singers, getting all high and everything, i thoroughly enjoyed the atmosphere.

I didn't take any pictures, cause i feel that it's quite pointless, the pictures will never be able to capture the atmosphere at that time. Some things you just got to experience it for yourself.

After that went for supper, then took a damn freaking bloody long drive up and down stupid PIE, got tired from all the looking out for signs, crappy singapore roads so hard to manage. Looks like i need to start mugging the roads soon.

The voice of the air supply duo is still lingering in my head, feels like singing karaoke, sometimes wished that i could sing well, it's like so magical. They say time can heal everything, i believe the power of music can too.

Many tell me that i'm old fashion, like all the weird weird oldies. Sorry but most modern songs are totally crap compared to those from the old, no meaning, no feeling, totally useless.

Maybe it would have been better if someone was beside me. Maybe. Maybe not.

You said you love me, just as i am...

Abit seh

2008-06-21T02:07:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Andrew house, in fact i didn't really drink much, must be the basketball match that got the alcohol circulating through my body fast.

Won a little bit of money from the texas holdem, enough to cover my taxi fares.

It's been nice gathering with the old specs and officer, guess it was all worth it organising it, although not alot of people turn up, but its the fun that counts.

Don't know why i'm quite seh, didn't really drink much, just a few cups of wine and sake, that's all.

Last week had been spent watching 溏心风暴。 Bloody freaking nice show which made me shed a few tears. Maybe it's because of the similarities to the family which got my father addicted too.I'm sure if the grandfather was still alive he could have achieved the billionaire status, then again his disgraceful sons may squander all his money even before i was born. Oh well, can't be bothered with them.

This week though, not that free, suddenly alot of activities crop up, don't know to choose which one to go.

Currently waiting for the game to start, but i'm unlikely to be conscious for the whole game, getting more sleepy and seh as time goes by.

So ladies, if you want any truth from me, better ask me now, think i'll be in a more open mood to tell you everything. HAHA, man speaks the truth when they go drinking, i think that's damn truth. LOL just realised it's true instead of truth, hey at least i'm alert enough to notice my own mistake.

YOU'RE WAY TO BEAUUTIFUL GIRLLL....sorry listening to that now...hahahahaha

Watching show.

2008-06-15T21:47:00.001+08:00

No time to blog, because as what's stated above.

Now its time to book in.

Out...

2008-06-12T22:47:00.002+08:00

Took an off, it's like 2 months since i last took one, so relax and enjoy at home.

These few days also nothing much, and obviously all the stalkers don't want to own up. Ma de, next time make you pay to come into my blog. Hahaha.

Anyway, let's take a few minutes to commemorate the passing of 2 of the nation's young servicemen, training to protect the country, dying in the process. Whatever it is, be it just a walk, or training in brunei, bottomline is they are gone, doing something for the nation.

Rest in peace.

PS i love you...

2008-06-07T00:40:00.002+08:00

Nothing to do in camp, so spent 1 day reading this book, borrowed from my platoon mate. Storyline was quite good, but i think the author couldn't match the plot with her writing, not really sure i'm not a pro at writing, just that reading that time sometimes cannot really get the feel. Still, manage to make me shed a few tears at some part of the story, maybe an insight of how one carry on when their loved ones passed away, which i don't even wanna think of it and experience.

I like reading, it's like watching a movie. The words form the images in my mind, and then the images start moving, and pages after pages, it becomes a movie. I think its even better than a movie, you can't film thoughts, and some can't capture the feelings on screen, whereas words can say things much more clearly.

Although i still stand by the phrase "words can never truly say what you want them to say".

After that read abit of david gibbins the last gospel, which is like too chim for me. Need to read up on alot of things to better understand the story.

A rather thoughts-ful week, used quite alot of brain cells i think.

Anyway, it has come to my notice that i have alot more "audience" here than i expected. I always thought it's the usual few people reading my blog, which meant those people who i linked to. THE REST OF YOU BLOODY STALKERS OWN UP AND TAG BEFORE I MAKE MY BLOG PRIVATE!

Hahahaha just kidding, but tag anyway, i want to know who's my loyal fans.

Recovery week...

2008-06-06T18:12:00.004+08:00

Didn't know climbing the stairs could ever be so difficult, wonder how i'm gonna live my old years.

My lucky number, too bad didn't became very lucky, 4D never come out.

Another few dollars spent on this magical number, which could be read upside down.
Since it's adidas sponsored, i played along, everything in adidas. Shoebag.

Shoe.

shorts.

and shirt.

Got my results, which is not surprising. Bloody slow, but not bad la finish 20 click in 3 hours.

7 hours 43 mins. HA, a bugatti veyron can complete a marathon in under 7 mins and i took like freaking 8 hours. CUI.

The day after the marathon

2008-06-01T21:16:00.001+08:00

The reason why cars are so important...

2008-06-01T15:19:00.002+08:00

So i left house at 10pm, met thia at hougang before taking a direct bus there. Reached there at just the right time, deposit our stuff, stretch awhile, and we are off.

The first 10 km, was so freaking fast, don't know why i run so fast also, but was already struggling at the 6km point, freaking changi coastal route is a bloody damn long straight line. Then you see the planes preparing to take off, bloody freaking hell, the speed they are going, they can finish a marathon in minutes, and i'm there running like a slow fuck. Wah demoralising, that part of the route was very mentally draining, cause my body is attempting to get used to the long journey ahead, after the 10km though, the body became more aclimatised so it wasn't so bad. Then Thia was struggling with his left knee, which was quite bad cause like cannot even walk at all. Running, stop, run is ok i think, what's not is when you run, then you walk, then you stop, and run again. I don't know why, but the walking part is particularly painful for the legs, more painful than running. The trick is to start running, but the first step is so so important.

So after that freaking bloody long route next to the airport, comes ECP. There was never a time i think that i was so hungry as at that point, that i was so tempted to go raid and push everyone away and eat their bbq. Walk like forever, then i told thia i run abit, because walking had become very very painful for the legs.

There's a long long long long loop at the end where the gantry is, so could see everybody running past, think that's the point where the muscles are struggling to get used to being pushed, because i had to stop several times to stretch the legs, after like what seemed forever, i finally finished that part of the marathon, and moved on to the park connectors to bedok reservoir, WHICH WAS LIKE 6KM!

Think we pass by darren house, which meant had to cross the freaking overhead bridge, there's like 4 in total what the hell man i hate bridge, especially in the middle of a freaking marathon. Anyway i hated this part of the route because of the undulating terrain. I guess that's just me, never liked those up and down slopes. Same applies to life, i prefer things to be peaceful, smoothsailing, constant, but as they say, change is the only constant.

Develop a routine at this point, every 2km, i'll stop and stretch the leg, and at the same time rest for awhile, before continue running and walking. The legs are tired of course, but i guess the mental challenge starts to come in, which i think i dealt with it perfectly. Focusing on reaching the 40km, just ran and walk and ran and walk. Of course there are many times where i just feel like giving up, because to carry on, even crawling is too darn tiring, felt like sitting down and stop moving and let the whole world pass me, but that wasn't gonna happen, not that night.

Friend told me that 30 to 40 was bad, but i think its ok, yes it took a long time, but i could still keep on going. Aim for the traffic light, so i ran, walk, and ran, walk and ran, crossing many traffic lights, determined to meet my short term goals, without ever letting the long term goal slip out of my mind.

Then at 38km, the legs started to get worse, was walking mostly now, after stretching i usually could run for awhile, but it was not the case now, the calf was feeling the stress now, and it took like forever to reach the 40km mark. A sense of achievement, but the last 2 click, was the worst i experience in my whole life. By this time i couldn't run at all already, and every step i took, my ankle sent a signal to my brain screaming pain. Pushing the legs to the ultimate limit, every step was painful, had to bite my arm to relieve some of the pain alot of times.

When you are so close to the finishing line, you wouldn't give up. Nothing could stop me at that point of time, and i guess that's when my mind was the only thing practically dragging my body forward. Last 100m ,time to wayang! Started jogging, then when i reached the finishing line almost cramp, hahaha omg man, bit my lips, continue on, never sia suay. HENG ARH.

After that rest for awhile, clean myself up, then went to wait for my parents. At that time then realise how bad my both legs were, barely able to walk. Even now, cannot really walk properly.

I guess its not bad for my first time, and the longest distance i had clocked in a day, than 2 months added up altogether, it was a good performance. Even when running at a super duper slow speed, i still felt like i was flying, hahaha, its like projecting the speed which i'll be running at when im 90.

A very good experience, learnt some stuff about myself, and finally i completed one of my life goals.

Impossible is nothing.

A long long loooooonnngggg weekend...

2008-05-30T20:55:00.002+08:00

Getting all hyped up for the marathon tomorrow night, it's gonna be a super long WALK. HAHA, i think i'm the most unprepared participant. Due to the injury couldn't really train for it, so yeah, i'll try my best to finish it before sunrise.

In the so called more "important" stuff, is the adding of a new link. Now i don't know how many girls read my blog, don't think alot la hor, nobody interested to stalk me also. Anyway, guys also can la, intro your girlfriends to the link. Just click on the link on the right, so many don't know which one? Sorry if you're so stupid you should just click the close button top right, you got no right to visit my website! BUT you can visit that particular one, don't need to be clever just need money.

Countdown to Euro 08, can't wait to see all the players in action...

Ouch...

2008-05-28T20:42:00.003+08:00

Just reach home, abit tired, and painful. Hahaha still smiling at a comment, “很痛，背后很多刀。"

This few days have been passing by so slowly, couldn't really sleep unless i'm tired. Maybe someday i'll blog about it.

I stand alone? It's really quite hard...

3 years ago this day...

2008-05-25T11:04:00.005+08:00

Without a shadow of a doubt, the best night of my life. A night full of emotions, on a plane traveling at the speed of light from hell to heaven.

The words "game well, and truly over." , i can still hear it echoing in my head. It must be truly painful for all liverpool fans throughout at that point of time. The rest, as everybody knows, is history.

On a random note, some pictures from the villa yesterday, woke up today then realise i never take picture of myself. A bit wasted, you don't see me wearing formal very often.

Even the toilet sink also so unique, water don gush out, it flows...

All tvs in the villa are of this size, i think the length of the tv is longer than me with arms stretched.
A swimming pool at the back, and that's where they exchanged the vows.

In my opinion the best part of the villa, the bedroom toilet, bloody hell its bigger than the bedroom.s
Look at the bath tub man. For your info the right side of the toilet is blocked by the door there, so it's much bigger than it seems. That's what you get for a 2k per night villa man.

In instanbul we won it 5 times...

Congrats....

2008-05-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

I just came back from edwin and pei li zeh zeh(my cousin) wedding. Although was feeling moody the whole day, due to the bloody weather, manage to switch to one of my better mood as the wedding dinner near.

Parents was needed for the tea ceremony, so had to leave early, right after i came back from my driving lesson. Reached sentosa quite early, and the villa was quite impressive, the toilet was bloody freaking big, even bigger than the bedroom itself. The price was even bigger, close to 2k a night. 2k, omg, that's like to and fro from singapore to liverpool.

When the finished signing the whatever cert you called it and were officially married, many of them were saying that i'm next, just because my cousin tony was studying in australia, and the spotlight was suddenly all on me. Sorry man they can wait like another 10 years. 1. no girlfriend. 2. Not so early, maybe around the age of 30. so they can wait another 10 years or so.

Any marriage i attend, can't do without wine, so i just kept drinking and drinking and drinking(at least 15 glasses) i think, cannot really keep track of everything.

And now, i'm feeling the effects of the wine, hahaha, quite smooth, that's why i manage to down so many glasses. I think the waitress is sick of asking me "another glass of wine sir?", because its always the same "yes thank you" answer.

Wishing my cousin a happy marriage, and a wonderful honeymoon in europe. Now all the 2nd generation of the family has gotten married, time to pass on the baton...

Maybe i drank a little too much, hahaha...

把爱传出去。

2008-05-18T23:25:00.003+08:00

Have been watching this on the taiwan channel today, some fundraising activity organised for callers to call in, with various people from the entertainment circle receiving the calls and helping to urge the citizens to donate more.

More and more touching stories being told every passing day. All of these stories, shows that there's hope for humans. In times of adversity, the actions by certain individuals are really encouraging.

Watching those scenes, really makes one feel helpless. I think it's time to start training and getting fit. Once i get out of that bloody useless place, which don't even seemed like doing anything, then i can maybe do something about it, like go help in the rebuilding process. The damage caused, looked like it'll take at least a decade to fully recover.

So true....

2008-05-17T17:36:00.001+08:00

What a crappy year.

2008-05-17T03:30:00.002+08:00

Even before half the year has passed, the number of shit things that happened had already surpassed all the bad things in the past 5 years.

Didn't do much today, except watching the news, and it was a damn freaking bad mistake to even look at it. Saw the live coverage of rescuers trying to rescue children buried under a school which collapsed. Many had their limbs amputated, and you could just see the fear and pain in their eyes. freaking 9 10 years old with a long life ahead of them, what are they gonna do without their hands and legs. One of them who got both his hands amputated said "How am i going to write without my hands?" Painful stuff to watch.

Haiz...

Wow i'm out...

2008-05-16T00:17:00.002+08:00

Very very very surprised that i could escape today, so early in the afternoon some more. It's like once in a purple moon. Stoned for half an hour before realising that it was no playout, then all started moving off.

Earlier swam 50 laps, coming in 1 person slower, cannot kio the bloody prize. AIYA NO KIOO. After that quite seh already, since its been a long time since i exercise, and with the bloody freaking 35 degree weather, i think, got a headache.

Anyway, went back home, sleep with air con, and i still bloody sweat more than during the swim. Piss off, taught sister some maths, EVEN MORE PISS OFF, but being the nice brother that i am, i never shout at her. Not according to my definition of shout that is. After that is rotting time, arranging my music, too much already.

This few weeks had been quite disastrous, and looks to carry on into the olympics, or nearer euro 08. First was the myanmar disaster, then an earthquake from nowhere comes out in China. Looking at the live coverage of those news is really heartbreaking. Many dead, living so many others behind, and many many others homeless, without food, water, shelter. China looks impressive though, mobilising so many people within such a short period of time. Junta? motherfucking pieces of shit who have their places reserved and booked, no prize for guessing where.

To all those, whose sacrifices can only be seen by heaven...

On 5th may 2008...

2008-05-09T21:00:00.004+08:00

Liam Harker lost his fight with cancer, and passed away at 4pm. No miracle, even though i'm sure many are wishing for it deep down inside, me included.

The famous quote from Bill Shankly, "football is much more important than life and death" caused quite a debate when people die.

Of course it gets put into perspective when you see a kid as young as 17 year old dying of cancer, but what did he wish for during his remaining days alive? To put on the famous red shirt and be buried together with it.

When hillsborough tragedy struck, what happened? The only remedy to it, a soccer match dedicated to the 96, for the club they so dearly loved and lost their lives supporting.

Liam harker my friend, although we have never met, your actions and bravery have touched all reds worldwide. You reminded us, the fans, the players, and the idiots in control what the liverpool shirt is all about, and what it represents when we wear it, be it out in the streets, or in our Anfield fortress supporting our club. You taught us all an invaluable lesson, and we will never forget it till we draw our last breath. A shame though that we couldn't win it for you to march on to Moscow. Now that you're free from pain, i'm sure you'll be watching and blessing us from above with shanks and pais and co., to win number 19th next season.

1990-2008

When you walk through a storm
hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm is a golden sky

And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.

Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.

Return this man to Huma's breast
Beyond the wild, impartial skies;
Grant to him a warrior's rest
And set the last spark of his eyes
Free from the smothering clouds of wars,
Upon the torches of stars.
Let the last surge of his breath
Take refuge in the cradling air
Above the dreams of ravens, where
Only the hawk remembers death.
Then let his shade to Huma rise,
Beyond the wild, impartial skies.

Family ties...

2008-05-04T12:48:00.002+08:00

As the saying goes, blood is thicker than water.

I'll say that's bullshit, in my context. I feel so lucky, to have great parents, it's really better than striking 4D, because the people around them are FUCKED UP. My uncles, my aunties, even my grandmother.

Ever since I could think, my mother tried to instill the "they are your elders, respect..." thinking into me. Maybe it worked when i was young, but not anymore. To think that they are constantly bullying her, and she had to put up with them and STILL tell me to respect them. PUI!

My uncles, HA, can challenge for the world's top 10 negative value man in the whole bloody world. Take drugs, again and again and again, finally a very good reason to pay tax, and that's to keep fuckers like him inside jail or whatever rehabilitation center so that he won't cause trouble for my father. He's out for awhile now, marrying a prostitute in the process, and thus creating many other problems for us too. Everyone thought he would work since now he has a family(stupid or what), most probably relies on my grandmother's money to survive. If you were me, you would be so tempted to buy drugs and feed him again, just for him to go back into that crap hole he came out from.

The other one, even worst, his gf sticked with him for don't know how long, like ever since i was a small boy. People call that love, i call that pure stupidity, and she sure qualify for Forbes Stupidest List. When my grandfather was alive, a call and he can gather the family under 10 mins. They would always come and gamble, then leaving my mother to clean up the mess. Then nvm that bastard called his friends to our house to play mahjong, then cheated his own family members of their money.

Everytime he call, there's always a very long story, with the same objective: money. His wife just gave birth to a girl, and for some reason they came out to singapore to give birth, even when they decided to do it in malaysia, then tell us no money no place to stay. In the end all the idiots push to my father here again, use my house for their "UN conference". Don't know what happen in the end, just don't wanna see them. My auntie still come and tell me the baby girl very cute, come on with this type of father he'll just be her personal pimp. Can cheat own brother's money what else can't he do.

These fuckers can just go to hell, i don't care.

However, there are those that cared about me, or once cared about me. For example my grandmother, if she wasn't, she'll just be a bitch who keeps on picking on my mother, causing my parents to quarrel etc etc. Even though now i never really care about her because of the way she is acting, but still feel a little guilty. After all she was the one who looked after me and took care of me when i was young.

This is totally like the local serials, where you always wished the bad guys die, and die horribly for the wrongs they committed, but then this main actor/actress will come and plead for them because of their ties or whatever reason. I think all these plots are taken from real life scenarios man.

When the mind and the heart can't agree, what do you do?

If they didn't treat me so well...

Get well soon....

2008-05-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

Today went for driving, and shall not bore everyone with what happened at driving, just that my instructor almost heart attack, even though i didn't see the danger, oh well...

After that went to find a new pair of running shoe, more or less decided what i wanted, but too bad no stock, so the assistant recommended a new pair, test test, then ok lor, even though not very nice. 5 mins and i'm done.
Ta ma de realise there's a blue colour de(mine's orange, or maybe red). Oh well, doesn't matter, swift, deadly, accurate. That's the important thing.

After that went to have some bnj, gave big big scoops, and discount too. Thank you!

Then received msg from father, so rush over to the hospital to visit my uncle. From suntec to is really freaking far, and a normal person would have took 1 hour++, too bad i'm not normal and was practically running, so got there in like half an hour++.

Went up to the ward and saw my uncle reading book. He looked like he aged alot in these few days, and it really pains me to see all the tubes and crap inserted into his body. The same feeling all over again. Was quite speechless at the time, so just asked him how he's doing and everything.
He told me to take care of myself and not get myself sick. Stayed for awhile after that and left, told him i'll see him again tmr.

I left feeling very down, and legs so shaky, not sure from all the blood i'm seeing, or from the pain i felt that he suffered. Life is so cruel sometimes, to liam harker, to my uncle, to katherine sis in law father, heck even lampard's mum, and the so many others out there. I know these things happen, i just wished they didn't. Childish i know, but i can't take pain, physically or mentally. A poem from Lemmo taken from rawk:

The Liverpool flag flutters proud
and gently in the breeze
Life goes on
but life will never freeze
life stands still
but still goes on
life is love
for the ones we love...

There are times for passion
there are times for doubt
there are messages of sympathy
and there are mesages of hope
there are times for silence
when there is peace in the air
there are times when we need to be together
the need to be there...

we've all learned a lesson
here these past day or two or more
it's that friends can be close
closer and also far away, which is hard to endure
friends can be a name on a banner
and not just face to face
we've also learned just how precious life can be
when we can be here today
and tomorrow we're just a page in history
like the mighty redmen
that we so proudly follow each week
as they look for the glory
that we all so desperatley seek...

it's not that easy
no one will ever know
the pressure on the mighty redmen
for their passion to us all to show
they are all here for a reason
that is well known
they are here for US:
We will Never Walk Alone...

Deep down i just wanna cry...

Bold = i think it's damn true

2008-05-01T17:32:00.002+08:00

What Desmond Goh Means

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.

You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.

People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.<br />

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

I'm so freaking proud of you guys :)

2008-05-01T16:30:00.003+08:00

Absolutely gutted, we more than matched chelsea, both the team and the fans. When we equalised i seriously thought we had them in the bag.

Just so painful to eat them then spit them out for them to eat us.

The onslaught in the first half of extra time was too hard to bear, but we never gave up, and throw every fucking crap we could at chelsea. Still, it wasn't our day, the penalty not given for hyypia foul, for fuck sake even andy gray said it was a penalty.

Then babel hit a 40 yard screamer, and you could not help but wonder and hope, drawing strength from the past experiences.

In the end, when the fourth official raised the board signaling 1 minute of extra time, I finally admitted defeat. 1 min was the time it took for the substitution of lampard to take place, not extra time.

Drogba had one hell of a game, good for him such a waste that he has to resort to all the diving when he is so much better than that.

Lampard, was poor, but i guess he deserved that goal, nothing better to heal yourself with a goal. What i detest is how everyone goes hype over his goal. Everyday people lose their loved ones and carry on with their work, dirk kuyt's done that, titi camara's done that. He scored a penalty kick which even i can score, so i don't see why everybody is going crazy over him. Lay off him and let him deal with it. Don't need to suck somebody balls when they lose someone so dear, it's not going to be any easier.

Just can't help but think about all the missed chances and that infamous own goal, seems like our gingerhead is gonna be sold. Been poor whole season.

Congrats to Chelsea, hopefully they go on to kick the scums asses. A quote that sums up the feeling after the game:

For today i hope the earth open up and swallow Chelsea Football Club. For tomorrow and the rest of this season, i will be chelsea's biggest fan.

We have seen the glory, and i believe we will see it again.

Heartbreaking...:(

2008-04-20T20:38:00.003+08:00

Just read on the Liverpoolfc.tv page about Liam Harker. I don't know how to describe it, but it's really really really painful to swallow.

A 17 year old suddenly admitted to hospital and realises he has cancer. Then to undergo treatment and when all looked to be over, the bastards returned and he was told he had only 2 weeks left to live.

His last wish? To wear a liverpool shirt to continue his next part of his journey. He was invited to LFC to meet the players and the managers and to visit the stadium, but i think the doctors didn't allow it. IMHO, he should just go, why deprive him of this trip, whatever happens he should leave the world happily. The fans have decided to make a banner of some sort to be shown during Liverpool's champions league semi final with Chelsea. Hopefully he'll still be around to see it. :'(

Totally heart wrenching stuff, can't even imagine how his parents must be feeling. Haizzz...

My heart goes out to you and your family Liam. Enjoy your last days on earth with your loved ones. I am sure everyone connected to Liverpool Football Club will be thinking of you. You will never walk alone.

Haiz...

2008-04-19T01:06:00.002+08:00

My beloved club has fallen into turmoil. Reading all these stuff, right here on the internet is very, very very depressing for a liverpool fan.

Imagine millions and millions of people reading what i have just read, they would be laughing all the way to their sleep. Seeing the 2 stupid crap insulting each other through the media, and getting everyone else involved is just too painful to read. All these shit, should have been settled inside a conference room, and nothing to be leaked out to the public.

This is definitely, not the liverpool way of doing things.

The general consensus is that Tom Hicks should get his bloody ass out and away from the club, due to the many lies that he said to the people. Now he comes out with an interview, STILL with all the crap that should have been done inside a conference room. Maybe there's some truth in what he says, but why can't it be just another PR stunt.

When Hicks does an interview, people comes out and back him. The same goes for Parry, Gillet.

Who are we to trust?

Who is telling the truth?

The 2 stupid losers have to communicate, or there's no end to this disgraceful turn of events. I can't described how disturbed i am by what's happening, this is just not right. Liverpool Football Club deserves better than this.

Who am i supporting? I don't know, i can't tell who cares, i just want all of these to end. Not necessary that somebody has to go or what, even though it looks inevitable. STOP THE NONSENSICAL BULLSHIT FOR FUCK SAKE.

In other news, my mp3 suddenly spoil, *snap* just like that. Same problem apparently, hanging at the startup page. This essentially means that i will be without music while travelling for 3 bloody months, til my itouch comes. Don't know what i'll do without music..

Today is my father's 48th birthday. I think. A toast to his health and stress free life. I feel bad letting him worry about me. I couldn't get a present for him, just don't know what to get for him. My sister went for a last min shopping but to no avail. Maybe tomorrow i try to go for a last last last minute shopping to get him a watch or something. My mother just went to buy a wallet and belt for him -.-

About time for me to get into my world of fantasy. Good night.

At the end of the storm is a golden sky...

El nino...

2008-04-12T03:14:00.005+08:00

Gerrard, Carragher & Torres go before God. He questions their beliefs, Stevie says 'footy to be the food of life' god says very well, and sits him to his right. He looks to Carragher, who says 'Courage, honour and passion on the pitch' God nods, and sits him to his left. God then looks at Torres and says ' what do you believe in son', Torres replies ' i believe you are sitting in my seat!!

Once i dreamed, now i'll lived, and maybe someday i get to dream again...

His armband proved he was a red torres torres.

2008-04-12T01:12:00.001+08:00

This, definitely totally owned that feeling....

celebrating 1 year of time wasting...

2008-04-09T21:10:00.002+08:00

Next year this day, i'll be free, totally free. By the way, have been awarded with a yellow card to commemorate a year of time wasting. Quite worth it, people waste few minutes on the pitch and get a yellow, while i waste a year of my life and get one. Hahaha, hopefully the next 1 year will pass by just like that *snap*.

In other news, my toe is getting better, the nail is slowly but surely dying, bit by bit, could see my flesh already, virgin flesh, never ever exposed to the world before.

Last night, liverpool brought me to hell, then straight back to heaven, then to the 18th floor, then back to buddha's hands again. LOL, what a turn of events, from disappointment and fear to pure joy. I couldn't really sleep after the game, the adrenaline was gushing like mad. One of the best games of the season, and more so when your team comes out victor in the end.

Nothing in my life can beat that feeling, yet.

Chua sai...

2008-04-04T00:54:00.002+08:00

Just went to TTSH to see the doctor regarding my leg, had been giving off some rotting smell for the past few days, didn't really notice it until today. I was wondering what smell that was in camp, thought it came from my clothes, hahha.

Went into the walk in clinic, waited while watching bad boys 2 on tv. Then saw the doctor, and he told me it was quite serious, and referred me to A&E, and told me depending on the situation i may need to be hospitalised.

Oh my god man really chua sai already, by that time had to call my driving instructor to cancel the first lesson already, what the crap man, guess have to wait for the next week.

Went down to A&E and did the admin stuff. Surprisingly i waited awhile only for my x ray to be taken, then the doctor came and attend to me shortly afterwards, and there were many people who was there before me still waiting.

To my relief, the doctor told me that i do not need to pull the whole nail out, which sounds painful, and i later found out i had to "sew" the artificial nail onto my freaking toe if i plucked it out. Then she brought me to the OT to clear the pus, which she said was pain. Quite nervous sia lie on the bed, she poke 2 hole on my toe and started cleaning when the numbness took effect. Pushed my toe nail up, which was about 75 degrees, with my toe as the base. Respect man, bloody and smelly she still dare to touch. Even asked me to look at my own toe, which i couldn't bring myself to. Hahaha reluctantly took a look then went back to lying down. After that she spam all the disinfectant and antiseptic.

Now feels better already, without the smell too, can't wait for my nail to grow back. It's always disappointing to be in the stands when the team is playing. hahaha

Counting down the time...

2008-03-30T21:16:00.002+08:00

Actually, i thought of alot of things to blog about, but then i forgot already. Haha, so now only waiting to go back camp.

Should be a short week for me. Have to go learn driving soon though, get it done quickly, i hope.

How would you feel?

2008-03-23T03:52:00.002+08:00

Have been asking this question to myself for alot of times. Don't really know the answer, and don't really know how to expect.

How would you feel when finally, in front of you, is the shankly gates?

No idea man, seriously no idea. Just thinking about it, makes it feel so real. I don't think i can put it into words, but there was a part where tears were about to come out. Not tears of joy, neither was it tears of sadness, just pure emotion.

Also thought about standing, or maybe sitting in the stadium. There's this stupid rule that spectators cannot stand, crap. As the anthem is being sung, just imagining it sends a tingle down my spine. Watching and hearing it on tv already got my hair standing.

I so wanna experience this, faster please.

where's this?

2008-03-20T02:13:00.002+08:00

It's been a freaking long time, and just realised that i had a blog. Haha, these few weeks freaking busy, alot of shit going on, alot of shitwork to do, and alot of shitwork to siam also. Here's where your lifeskills come into use, next time go society work confirm essential for survival.

Time passed very fast, march already going to end, and i haven't freaking start to learn my driving. Super sian, and soon i'll celebrate 1 year of national service. Ma de, hope it faster end man, i can feel it, i'm freaking useless now, don't even wanna use my brain sometimes, my brain cells are dying due to stupidity, and its freaking contagious. Hope the damage is not permanent man, i still need to go to uni.

Ok think i stop here, don't even remember the events that passed, except that i to cruise, away from singapore for a few days, which is quite relaxing for the mind. Time to sleep.

the long awaited post...

2008-02-25T20:15:00.010+08:00

I promised that i'll update about my trip to New Zealand, so here it is, exercise thunder warrior. A very beautiful place indeed, and the weather makes you never ever want to come back to Singapore, so freaking hot and humid that you just feel pissed being here.
On the way to NZ, always liked the scenery from the very top,especially at night where there's many many stars.
After the gruelling 9 to 10 hours plane ride, which i was asleep for most of it, was the 6 hour bus ride, a very long one, and since i was not accustom to eating plane food, it meant that i did not eat for the whole day. Haha, so apart from playing psp and sleeping, took some time to take some photos of the places that we drove pass.
Cannot be seen clearly, but this is the light of god, shining down on this particular hill, quite cool can see the rays everything.
The place where i showered, yes it looked comfortable, but it CAN run out of warm water, which means i'll be bathing in cold freezing water under freaking cold weather.

Ahhh what beautiful flowers, can see alot of it grown everywhere, very pretty.
The sun rising , can't remember what time was it, but the days were damn bloody long, 5am first light, and the sun freaking sets at 10pm! And this means that there's alot of things going on for a very long period of time.Another artistic shot of the sunrising by me, actually i think i quite talented, got the photographer flair. HAHAHA

Should be the sunset, when it gets dark, it really gets dark, so at night, you can clearly see the stars, and also the earth orbiting, i saw like 4 shooting stars in less than an hour.

This kind of sky, cannot be seen in singapore, simply beautiful.
The clouds in NZ are amazing, i can simply lie there for hours gazing at the sky, letting my mind wander, and can see alot of pictures and things in the clouds.
Taking a picture, the legal way. Superb scenery.
A few of my pictures where there's actually people inside it. I still prefer sceneries though, that's why the majority is on the landscape.
What more can you ask for, brushing your teeth with such a beautiful background.

There's a hole in the sky tonight....
The very big ice mountain, and the closer we got to it, the colder it became, so yeah, it became like our weather forecast.

The rain is coming, can see the contrast very clearly, in fact if you go to a high enough hill, if there's rain you can see it coming from afar, slowly swallowing the whole place so that you can only see fog in the distant.
Another lucky day as i got the glimpse of the sunset without any clouds obstructing.
Getting dark, time to pull out the sleeping bag. hahaa
Was our sky ever this blue?

Can't stop taking pictures of the sun. Breath taking view.
This meant, R and R! A stream leading to lake taupo, yes a lake in NZ, which is also coincidentally the size of singapore. hahaha

Went deeper in and found a nice spot for pictures, notice how close we were to falling in, hahaha but the water was warm, i wouldn't mind.

After that was at the village watching the people do the HAKA, freaking fierce, very nicely done.

A river formed by the water flowing down from the mountains, no residue at all, can clearly see the bottom, and best of all, its safe to drink.
After that was the 9 course dinner sponsored by SAF, oh the 9 course included the coke, tea, and of course the rice. HAHA
A place we went for lunch, then they had this luge ride where you sit in something like a car and steer it downhill. I think i broke the record for the fastest lap down the hill, crazy stuff which you only see in F1.

Part of the course, few crashes here and there, some minor injuries, but that's it. Actually it was more of burnout then F1, many many takedowns. HAHA
The hotel that we stayed, it was actually quite good, but it was too far away from town, so yeah quite inaccessible.
Getting dark already in town, didn't have much pictures on R and R because most of the time was flying around trying to get to places so we can shop. Everything closes at 5 sharp, so snapped a picture before we continued shopping.

R and R was too short, i wanna go back to NZ, read their visitors guide and there's like tonnes of tourist attractions that i never had a chance to go.

I think this post is damn long, so yeah hope you readers enjoy it, i'm shagged!

100m run anyone?

2008-02-23T23:32:00.002+08:00

NTU FUND RUN 2008 - Run for fun, Aim for Funds!

On 1st March 2008 to 2nd March 2008 (1pm to 1pm), NTU Students' Union Students' Funds Committee will be holding a fundraising AND record breaking attempt at *SCAPE NATIONAL YOUTH PARK (OPPOSITE CINELEISURE).

We will be attempting to set a record of the most number of participants running a 100metres relay non-stop for 24 hours. The runners can be repeated but not consecutive. In order to break this record, we need about 1200 participants. For every runner that completes the run, our sponsors will donate a certain amount of money to the event. However at the moment, the number of applicants is very low and it's less than a week to the event! As such, I would like to appeal to all of you to come down on the day of the event and support us!

Not only will you be part of a record breaking attempt, you will also be helping out for a good cause! All the proceeds obtain from NTU FUND RUN 2008 will go entirely to help the needy students of NTU and also our beneficiary MINDS( Movement for the Intellectually Disabled Singapore).

At the event, expect not only a goodie bag which contain items such as Eng Wah movie tickets, Ben & Jerry's Vouchers etc, but also 24 hours NON-STOP entertainment of LIVE BANDS and PERFORMANCES. Not only so, there will be a BAZAAR and you will get to purchase Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream with your voucher instantly!

Once again, I appeal to all of you to support this event. You can just drop by if you are near the area.

It only take less than 1 minute to complete the 100 metres run, but the funds raised can changed the lives of our beneficiaries.

If you are unable to make it for the event, kindly help us to forward this email to as many of your friends as possible.Thank you for your support in our bighearted dreams! :)

Please visit http://www.ntustudentsfund.com/ for more information or contact me at TEOC0034@ntu.edu.sg!

Cheers,

NTU Students' Fund Committtee

The advertisement above does not represent the opinion of the owner and is only there for commercial purposes.

However, next time i may organise an event similar to this, just that the money will all be donated to my account. So do support me yeah...

HAHAHAHA ok anyone who ever steps in here and reads the crap i write, if you're interested inform me then maybe can go together.

My destiny...

2008-02-17T18:38:00.002+08:00

I stand alone.

Bad start to the year 2008,

2008-02-10T21:20:00.000+08:00

which means that it can only gets better from here onwards.

Firstly, when i came back, my father was down with some rare urinal infection, causing him pain and discomfort, not being able to eat well, sleep well, etc etc.

Then nvm, next up on chinese new year, or somewhere around there, torres got injured due to a hamstring injury, which immediately rules him out of tonight match against Chelsea. What the hell?! Its just a friendly.

Ok that's 2 in a row already, then nvm, come the new year, i went on to lost $50. It's suppose to be a wealthy year for those born in 1988!

Then i went on to pissed someone off, haiz let's not go there.

NOW, i just heard my aunt had a heart attack and is now in ICU. This is like so sudden, and this kind of shit happen.

Everyone around me is hurt and sick. What the fuck, guess it's best to go back to camp afterall...

Some pressing matters...

2008-02-07T11:52:00.000+08:00

I've been back from New Zealand, beautiful place, but there's other pressing matters to attend to, so once i've reflected on the trip, i will do a post on it.

Anyway, getting very upset and i guess this poem sums it up, beautifully done by AFC-MD from .tv forum.

WE ARE LIVERPOOL FC

The way our club was run was always unique,
We knew when to be silent and when's right to speak.
And while I'm sure that such an approach had its flaws,
I wish we'd never let these two clowns through our doors.

They promised us money, and a flashy new ground,
But that went to pot when no loans could be found.
And speaking of loans, they said 'none' when they came,
But like so many promises it turned out to be lame.

'We'll sign Snoogy Doogy, if one can be found',
But then you'll um over a defender for 4 million pounds?
Tell Rafa he can't sign who he wants on a free,
And can't even decide who stays and who leaves?

They told Rafa to focus on coaching his team,
Took the control away from him cause they had the means.
Stories of them selling were quickly denied,
But the silence was deafening on the Rafa divide.

Whenever the stories began to die down,
The flames were fanned by these PR loving clowns.
Smiling thinking back to the way Rafa 'pouted',
We'll wipe away your smiles now your agenda's been outed.

Approaching a man not fit to shine Rafa's shoes,
Bringing it out in public, what was the use?
Consulting him on football also has me intrigued,
Where's his La Liga's? His Champions League's?

I long for the days when the money didn't matter,
Money men behind the scenes so we can listen to the Rafas.
When knowledge of football was required to comment,
Not PR games from no-marks with big wallets.

But they've picked the wrong battle with the wrong folk this time,
We won't just lie down when our club's on the line.
Shanks understood the people were the heart of this club,
As did Rafa when he came for a drink down the pub.

It's not just for our manager now that we're fighting,
But for the wrongs of these two fools that we just want righting.
We know now we should have never sold out to these Yanks,
And we'll fight till it's them who are walking the plank.

We are the supporters, we've seen the joy and the pain,
We've followed our team through the wind and the rain.
Without us there's nothing, these clowns soon will see,
We are the club. We are Liverpool FC.

Always had this feeling that something like this would happen, but didn't want to think about it because everybody deserves a chance, but right now, fuck off yanks. We want you out! Funny that i'm doing this on a cny, but some things just got to be said, and it got to be said fast.

So....

Everybody huat arh, stay healthy and happy in this mouse year, and win lots and lots of money, unless you're playing against me.

Cya on chinese new year...

2008-01-14T00:03:00.001+08:00

In less than 24 hours, i'll say bye bye to singapore for 3 weeks, on a little journey to NZ. I'll be coming back on 4th, which is like a few days before the new year, no time to hone my skills prior to the real thing, so i guess its really luck this time.

I think everything will be quite screwed, since you know, the people i'm going with is very competent. Oh yeah that was not a typo.

Looking forward to experiencing a new environment for the next few weeks. The clear blue sky, the grassland stretching towards the horizon, which you definitely won't be able to see in Singapore. Of course i hope i get to see the scenery in NZ, which is like 1 of the "must do when you're in new zealand". Hope can squeeze all of that in 1 day, since there's already a planned tour, which i think will be hopeless and useless, and can only satisfy those who thinks that nz is part of US.

So people, take care and cya all soon.

A girl i would like to know...

2008-01-11T01:09:00.000+08:00

Read this on the liverpool website today, wasn't really surprised that there was a letter from singapore, since we ARE the biggest club in the world, but the content in this letter is something special. She echo my thoughts, and i'm glad that there is someone here in singapore who feels as strongly as I do about liverpool. I guess the only difference now is that she had already embarked on her pilgrimage to Anfield.

The butterflies, the adrenaline, the excitement, the hair on your hand starting to stand when you hear YNWA being sung, even on tv, and the euphoria when you see the red army put the ball into the net.

Nothing, and i seriously mean nothing can ever make me smile so naturally and comfortably except the cheers and roars of the anfield faithful and the look of delight on the players when they got a goal.

Nothing can get me down as much as when liverpool is losing. I still remember I was tearing when liverpool lost 3-0 to the bluenose some time ago.

Oh man i am so looking forward to the day i step into john lennon airport. There is only 1 place to go next...
GUEST COLUMN : AN LFC LETTER FROM
AN LFC LETTER FROM SINGAPORE Jan Lin, Singapore 10 January 2008

The story of an Asian girl on growing up as a Liverpool supporter in Asia and why Anfield is ever so special and different to her.

'But Asian girls don't watch football', screamed my mortified mother.

‘Do you have any idea what an ungodly hour it is, young lady!'

I took a sideway glance at the wall clock. It read 3:45am. Why yes, it was inexplicable to my mother why her teenage daughter would dutifully crawl out of bed and drop herself in dreaded darkness by the tele all for a football club that has aptly taught her to hold her head up high and not be afraid of the dark.

The year was 1999. Liverpool lost in a tragic fashion by two cruel goals minutes from stoppage time after taking a lead for close to 90 minutes in the 4th round FA Cup tie against the arch nemesis. My heart was too heavy to return to bed then but one is seldom sorry for 'sacrificing' bedtime hours for the Reds.

I have a confession. As embarrassing (and melodramatic) as this goes: I teared that ghastly morning for feeling the injustice of a team that was as near as on the other side of my TV screen was and as far as being on the other side of the world, which had this defeat so vividly embedded in my memory.

Derisive text messages from [insert adjective of your choice] United fans started invading my phone and the thought of being scoffed at in school just hours later made skipping school an appealing option, but to nurse a Liverpool heartbreak would never make a valid excuse to get a day off from school.

If you don't already know, football fans in Asia are well-versed in the art of "nocturnalism", that is to be religiously sleep-deprived over one's football team. When the final whistle snoozes, high school kids in Asia pack their bags then head off to school with heavy eye bags and it becomes part of growing up.

It was hard growing up as a Liverpool supporter in the 1990s. Before the internet was readily available, club news were few and far in between. Yet as many Liverpool supporters at this end of the world will say, however hard it was growing up as a Liverpool supporter, I will not have had it any other way.

Though I was completely charmed by Liverpool the first time I saw them on tele in 1995, I spent the next half a decade asking my tele, 'Do you always have to be this painful to watch?' (Don't you ask too?) It is still as painful some days today, but growing up with the club means you grow stronger together too.

The 1990s will be etched in our memories as the decade of defensive woes from Calamity James to Carra’s affair with own goals. The one thing I've learnt about being a Liverpool supporter even in the Far East is this: Liverpudlians stick through with their team from season to season no matter where or what.

I know of rival clubs' fans in Asia who habitually club-hop, but there was (and still is) something about Liverpool that draws their fans in and keeps them there, irrationally so. Perhaps history taught us to, but we're also accustomed to the Reds' ability to repay our faiths by extreme means and honestly, I love it.

The adrenaline bursting through the top of your head to the untamed butterflies in your stomach that needs to be caged, every comeback story adds a new dimension of belief to your sustained support of the club. Secretly, everyone loves a comeback match and no club does it better than Liverpool.

After a disappointing decade in the 1990s, the lads spun a classic comeback tale at least twice to clinch the unique treble in 2001 and by the time Istanbul happened, I was eternally ecstatic but not less familiar to such moments of midnight magic. Need I still mention the FA Cup final in 2006? Enough said.

The year of Istanbul was my tenth year anniversary as a larky supporter of the club. By Liverpool, I've been overcome by a conviction of what is worth it, is worth the wait. The 2005 Cup didn't do an Asian tour as the 2001 UEFA Cup did, so a trip to Anfield quickly had become a non-negotiable ordeal.

It was initially rumoured in Asia that Stanley Park would be ready by the end of 2008. Horrified by the prospects of never-been-Anfield-bound, I took a gap year in 2007 to spend a year in England. It is hard to articulate why, but Asians have often shared of having an emotional seizure at Anfield. And I did so, too.

It wasn't hard getting there, a local bus ride of about twenty minutes from the city center and I was dropped at the gateway of my midnight magical moments, which were rushing into my head as I stood at the heel of the Victorian gates - for a split moment - to take it all in. With both arms swung wide in a V-sign, a fellow Asian visitor whom I didn't know erupted into delirious roars the moment he got off the bus, 'I'm here, I'm here'! That is what I was talking about. As bizarre as it sounds, many Asian fans (men especially) get completely blown away just by the sight of Anfield.

I was on my own. I never knew Anfield was this majestic and beautiful to say the least. From the humble dressing room to the historical KOP end, the stadium tour lived up to its billing and it would take a lifetime to forget how wickedly entertaining our Scouser guide was. One would have thought seeing The Cup will be the highlight of the trip, after all it embodies the relentless spirit of the club's anthem and reminds you why supporting this club is one of the best thing in your life, but no - I was in for a bigger treat at Anfield and no - it wasn't meeting one of the lads.

As I was leaving the stadium, frantically snapping up last minute pictures from the bus stand across the stadium, my defining moment as a Liverpool supporter came. A Scouser in his thirties sped towards me from the other side of the road and asked, 'Would you like a photo with the stadium? Let me help you!'

That was a moment that redefined my understanding of what You Will Never Walk Alone means. Pleasantly stumped and a lack of a better word, I shyly ran a flowing tap of 'thanks'. To which his reply would warm me for a decade of winters, 'Nah worries! Liverpool fans do anything for each other'. This is why Anfield is so different and will always be so. The red sea doesn't divide at Anfield. The supporters at the stands don't only stick with the lads on the field but they stick by each other in every sense of You Will Never Walk Alone. I may never see you again but if you are the Scouser I met at Anfield last May, on this public space, you deserve a heartfelt 'ta'!

what i've been doing the past few days...

2008-01-07T16:59:00.001+08:00

Nice graphics, i love swimming inside, the water looks so real...

Don't blame me i was starting to get pissed...

2007-12-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

Sui la, apparently got damn bored and ta da, created myself to play. Hahaha sometimes i just hate myself, finishing 16 still can't score goals. DAMN

Wow, resolution time..

2007-12-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

Seems like this place had been long abandoned, just like how the tower of palanthas was closed by the black mage when he used his life to cursed the beautiful tower into a wretched hideous building, until of course, the master came back and reclaim it.

2007, it may seemed slow at times, but looking back, it's like flying at F1 speed. I could still remember my reflection on the 2006, with the highlight being the concert of robin gibbs, and the surprisingly good results.

Anyway time to look back on the year 2007, undoubtedly the highlight, and unfortunately is my enlistment to the BEST and MOST EFFICIENT workforce in Singapore. From then on went through what every guy in Singapore will and went through. Fast Forwarddd.................

8 months into service, can't say achieved much, but learnt quite alot during this period. Of course, there was the dark period where my mother underwent operation for her cancer and the long recovering process that was required. She's much better, but still a long way to becoming fully healed. Therefore my first wish for 2008 is for her to become completely healthy again.

Resolution time, 2008, quite a few things i wanna do. Firstly is to thoroughly enjoy myself in New Zealand, can forsee a good trip ahead, and hope it turns out to be. However shag i may get, i shall hold on til R & R.

Next would be my first time running a full marathon, hopefully can complete it, which is like fulfilling 1 of my life's goal. There's no better time to do it when you have a full year to play around with. After that hope the momentum will carry on for the end of year standard chartered marathon.

Guess that's the most pressing matters on my mind at the moment. Wishes will still be the same, safe and sound, stay happy always, and you la, so frustrating.

hahaha would i ever be? i wonder....

line phobia...

2007-12-09T15:09:00.000+08:00

This few weeks are passing by so antagonisingly slow, can't take it already. What seems like years, had actually only been weeks. Every week is quite routine, go outfield, get fucked, then go home.

I'M SICK OF IT ALREADY.

Anyway, went to play mahjong yesterday at darrell house. Its been quite a while since i touched mahjong, got abit rusty. Lost abit, but won most of it back in the end, lost $2. Quite a small game, although there were many big doubles everywhere.

After that went for supper, then dou feng to harbourfront. I wan a license too, think i should go australia take, sounds easy. Hahaha.

Reached home at around 330, and saw the news that liverpool lost. Haiz, from what i hear and see, liverpool were unlucky to lose by a 3-1 margin. Referee once again, at the centre of the controversy, useless piece of shits, mistakes after mistakes, cannot make it.

It's ok, critics feel free to write us off, most of the sports journalist and analyst talk crap anyway, wonder why so many ppl read and still believe the rubbish they write.

Gotten a cold, weather has been bloody weird today, think i should take a nap.

Tragedy...

2007-11-25T19:45:00.000+08:00

5 Singaporeans drowned in Cambodia after some dragonboat race. I'm sure alot of people must have been affected by this.

Watched the evening news, interviewing those NOKs, seeing the pain and sorrow in their eyes. Somehow couldn't bear to watch the part where the mother was crying and screaming at the same time. Downright painful, i could feel it.

Young strong healthy teens, about to reach the peak of their youths. Gone just like that, what if they chose to walk back instead of rowing back? Haiz unfortunately there's no what ifs in this world. Life is so fragile.

A sad day for Singapore, a sad day for the families and people involve. May paladine guide you through these dark times.

Return this man to Huma's breast
Beyond the wild, impartial skies;
Grant to him a warrior's rest
And set the last spark of his eyes
Free from the smothering clouds of wars
Upon the torches of the stars.
Let the last surge of his breath
Take refuge in the cradling air
Above the dreams of ravens where
Only the hawk remembers death.
Then let his shade to Huma rise
Beyond the wild, impartial skies.

ARGHHHHH...

2007-11-04T03:22:00.000+08:00

I can't believed this, but this is the first time i got so depressed watching liverpool play, and i mean it, ever since the days of roy evans and gerard houllier.

A first look at the line up, and i went, errrr ok, he's doing something weird, like playing 451 which we haven't been doing for a damn long time. Nvm its ok then, since gerrard is on fire i can see that the gaffa is trying to push him upfield to unlock the defence. Fair enough let's see how it turns out.

20 mins later, the fans, the neutrals, the commentators are falling asleep. They even went to the point of discussing other soccer stuff than concentrating on the game itself. From here on its damn obvious the formation isn't working, it looks more like a 4-6-0. What does he do?

Wait

Wait.

Wait.....

60 mins gone, then he made the first change, and a good one i must admit, kewell for the somewhat ineffective babel. Then waited ANOTHER 10 mins, on comes crouch.

Immediately, blackburn was pushed back into their own field, yes that was probably the first time they felt under pressure. After some shooting and passing and nice moves, which resulted in no goal, the game ended.

So questions? Why wasn't the subs brought on earlier on! Why did we start with such a defensive line up? Even though they are blackburn and they are on a roll, we are LIVERPOOL and definitely had the quality in the squad to challenge them.

The only positive i could see from the game, was kewell returning to action. DAMN THIS IS SO FREAKING FRUSTRATING!!!!

close brush with death maybe?

2007-10-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

It's been a bloody super long time since i updated my blog, could see the cobwebs and thick layer of dust all around already.

Haven't been doing much of late, going into camp, waiting for the weekend to come, then proceed to rot at home for the next 2 days. I've literally lost touch with the outside world. Seems like everyone around is quite busy, poly people into their final year busy with projects, thia concentrating on his A level, and the uni people are mugging their ass off for the coming exam period.

Experienced something in camp quite weird i must say. I was sleeping head rested on the platform connected to a chair, then suddenly i was awake mentally, which means that i'm still physically asleep that is. I couldn't move, I could feel myself mentally forcing my brain cells to make my muscles obey, but somehow i just couldn't move. I tried to scream for my friends beside me, but somehow my mouth just couldn't open. That was damn scary, and the worst part was, i couldn't get myself to breath.

I started to panic and pushed myself even harder, then when it seemed like my strength was ebbing away, i finally "woke up". It was a damn scary moment, but then my friends attribute it to tiredness and lack of sleep. Maybe so, but the moment when i realised i wasn't breathing was quite scary, and for sure i don't want to experience it again.

Things are gonna start picking up soon, so i think i'll have more things to blog in the future.

Sai Gang warrior...

2007-09-30T19:48:00.000+08:00

This few weeks have been busy doing saigang, and its really quite busy. First time i come across sai gang that require sleepless nights and endless days to complete.

The weekends had been quite productive, which may lead to me producing a beer belly sooner or later, every week also drink, i think must change back to wine soon, healthier also.

October has arrived, i think i'll be busy real soon, with all the exercise coming up, which means i won't be online as often as it is now.

Actually i thought i had alot to blog about, but then come til this page like forget what i wanted to say already. Haha last night had a very very weird dream, those kind you will smile about, but don't know la seems so real to me.

Ok shall leave it til next time really nothing to blog...

Back for just awhile...

2007-09-12T20:25:00.000+08:00

Nights out, so came home to relax and lie on my bed for awhile. Had my dinner, then i thought i was damn shag and going to faint, and the feeling persisted for a good 10 mins. Then everyone in the family felt the same, so must be only 1 thing, some super duper big earthquake somewhere around here.

News was surprisingly slow in reporting it, by that time many ppl were already gathering downstairs, don't know for what, if the HDB collapse i bet from where they are standing they won't survive either. 7.9, haiz must be many casualties. Heard from thia and cs that kahwoon is over there, no idea whatever the fuck he's doing there. Community service also must go until so ulu place, but since he there to ji de, i think should be safe la, heaven is not that unfair.

In other news, minghong has passed his air grading, oh yeah must get used to saluting him already. Missed his company, glad he's coming back for some time now. When he goes overseas again i think i'll visit him when i ord, must do some travelling.

Back to slacking, then back to camp...

Tuesday with morrie...

2007-09-02T12:44:00.000+08:00

Completed the book in camp due to my overly excessive free time. People say its a good book, but somehow i felt that the term used is wrong.

The time you take to finish reading the book may be like say a few hours, but it takes quite awhile to fully digest it. Some of the stuff written inside is quite interesting, the thoughts of a dying man, and quite a wise man. I think most of the stuff that he said trying to enlighten others is just plain common sense, deep down inside many will feel the same way.

Tensions of opposite, i always referred to my "tension of opposite" as a struggle between light and dark. Push and pull, yin and yang, i guessed its the same thing. Afterall i believed in balance in the world, and we should constantly strive to maintain this balance.

Money not everything? Well i would have agreed with this very strongly a few years back, but now i'm not so sure. It may not be everything, but it's still something. Doing meaningful things? Sure, but family still comes first, its an obligation. Anyway this meaningful thing is very subjective also, i think its just personal preference.

I truly wonder if reader's perspective and attitude changed after reading that book. Somehow it feels like its not very possible. He can go on and on and say about things that he feels is important that people should know, but the thing is people already know that deep down inside. Maybe these are just the thoughts and view from a dying man, and you may never get to truly understand it until you become one.

Love each other or perish?

Hope, that's what humans can do...

Army Half Marathon

2007-08-26T20:58:00.000+08:00

Today went for the 12km army half marathon run. I wasn't prepared at all for this run, because was told only at wed that we had to go for the run. Since bo bian have to go all the way there, so must well go try abit, the prospect of running on the Nicoll Highway was quite interesting too.

Woke up at 0430, which is like bloody early because couldn't sleep the night before, it was too early for sleeping. Then delay here and there abit, and we're off to esplanade.

The run started at around 730++, and i finished mine slightly before 9, accompany kahwoon for 7km, then i went off on my own already, but there were too many ppl must siam like siao. Had abit of difficulty in the last 2 3km, but going by the most suitable phrase to use in a marathon "It's all in the mind...", so ok la 12km wasn't that bad afterall.

After that went home and heard in the news that an officer died after his 21km, quite sad actually, but this kind of things can't be helped i guess. Where is your limit? How the fuck do you know when you are at your limit, then if you don't run til your limit how do u improve your fitness. I guess only a thin line seperates life and death, and from what i see the line is getting thinner everyday.

Injured my ankle, like half walking half limping already, oh well, i hope it recover soon so can go play some soccer.

Til next week, can't wait to book out already...

Low key period

2007-08-18T01:59:00.000+08:00

Now in camp is not very happening, since exercise haven't started, but soon, it will all change soon.

Due to the massive amount of free time that i have, i spend my day lying in bed, and the night lying in bed, nothing much can be done to increase my knowledge, except that i could read some books, or even refresh my mathematics from the jc notes. Other than that i can only go online to search for something interesting to read, improve my general knowledge.

Of course, when you have nothing to do, you think more, and i recently realised that, i don't really know myself that well. I don't think i can even describe myself, which is why its always damn hard to write in the column About Me, excluding those what "i like coffee i like to go shopping etc etc..." Fuck who also can write that.

To start off with, my life have been relatively smooth sailing, not to say its not good Its good and i thank everyone up there, or perhaps my previous life for it, but because of this maybe that's why i'm quite a stranger to myself.

First of all, i'm a fighter, i don't like to give up, in fact i hate to give up. Maybe it's just me, but giving up, to me is losing, and i hate to lose. I get pissed when i lose, but most of the time i'm not pissed with others, i'm just pissed with myself. I believed that if i focused my mind into doing something, I have the ability to do it well, and not disappoint anybody. Even if i fail, i would have this urge to retry, rethink my strategy, review my mistakes, and tackle the problem with a different approach. No way am i going to give up, maybe also because of the liverpool spirit rooted in me. Then again, i won't succumb even if i have to fucking walk alone, and because of this, i always felt that i'm destined for something big. Hopefully that will happen in the future.

If only it was so simple...

19 yrs...just liked that.

2007-08-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

I realised i haven't been blogging for quite some time, so just dropped by for a quick post.

FYI(For Your Info), my birthday was over just a few days ago. I spent most of the days in camp, then nights out with my parents for dinner. Lived 19 years already, and i guessed i'm really getting old, mentally. Physically still quite ok, can run can jump can march, but then mentally can see some transformation. No more worrying too much about studying, now is about more practical stuff.

19 years old already, cannot expect parents to keep on feeding me, must think about how to earn money, where to earn money, and about my future. Of course, there's still the whole thing about what's the point of life.

Coming to birthday wishes, plain and simple and easy. Hope everyone will be safe and sound, free from all disease, and that my mother will make a complete recovery from her illness. Hope that next birthday will come soon, cause by that time i will be on ORD mode. Hope father's business will prosper. Hope mh will realise his dream. And, hope my status will change soon...

what year izzit...

2007-07-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

Let's see, another year passed, and i took quite a while to calculate how old i am now.

Hmm, seems liked i had gone through a lifetime, can't even remember my age...

The year of Jacky Cheung world tour 2007.

2007-07-15T13:56:00.000+08:00

I went for the 2nd concert of my life, and once again i was impressed with the performer on stage. This time it was my all time favourite idol jacky.

Rushed home from camp, then had a super quick dinner, then took the documents required and zoom downstairs. Thanks to jasmine, who so kindly make a super big detour according to her, to fetch me go indoor stadium together. Anyway, reached there about 1830, and could see the crowd arriving already.

Watched them ate their dinner, then went to collect tickets, then it was time to switch to concert mode.

Entered with a bang, and continued to belt out several rock songs, which i must say i was quite impressed. A lot of dancing and singing, and full credit to him, it was quite nice. You don't see jacky cheung even move from a spot, much less dance 10 years ago. Even though the dance wasn't of a high level, like aaron kwok all these, but at least the dance moves have his own personal style to it.

Then out came his classics, which was what it was, classic, sung by the god of song himself. Thoroughly enjoyed myself, and i felt the concert was valued for money, every single cent of it.

Newspaper reported about the concert and labelled him as crazy for throwing the microphone stand around, but that's what they are, the newspaper a.k.a FOS(full of shit). I can't really be bothered by their crap, many people upset by his actions? As i've said, fos.

Talk about S.H.E, Jay Chou, but come to singing and improving, i think these new generation singers have much to learn from these lao jiao. The professionalism and commitment he displayed deserve mention, and of course his vocal is still as pro as ever.

Rock on, and may your music continue to light up the world for many years to come...

Hectic days...

2007-07-08T14:05:00.000+08:00

This weekend had barely anytime to figure out what i was doing. Friday did my guard duty, which was quite boring since nothing much happened. Didn't get to sleep much also, was talking cock with the guard comm most of the time.

After the torturous shift took a little nap here and there, not more than 3 hours of sleep. After all the SOP then took a bathe and went home, courtesy of my parents coming all the way down to pick me. I went home, didn't remember much about getting onto the bed, and the next thing i knew it was 4pm.

Fuck i just wasted 1 day sleeping.

After that went bowling, which ended with a pulled muscle somewhere on my arm. The day, or should i say night, ended after watching hebe on tv.

I settled my btt, which will be on the 15th of sept, and the jacky cheung concert ticket. Next week will be a hell lot busier. I have to literally fly home, then take all the necessary documents, which includes my father ic which means that i cannot go straight from camp. Quite excited by the thought of it, my 1st concert was great, and i hope this time ge shen will deliever and make it better than my 1st experince.

I can't wait for friday to come...

Beyond the everest.

2007-07-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

Just realised i haven't blog for quite some time. Booked out this week, had been quite a long one, lectures and lectures and lectures, other than that there was not much physical activity.

Today basically stayed at home to watch some tv, and more importantly to watch the last episode of Discovery Channel Beyond the Everest. The actual filming of the whole expedition was quite amazing. Going up the mountain itself is already very dangerous, and you have to do some filming at the same time.

There was quite alot of drama during the climb, especially when the team was nearing the summit. Clearly there was no time left, and the climbers who haven't reached the summit still insist to go on despite the continuous pleas of the leader who told them they do not have enough oxygen left.

In the end they were persuaded to come down, but they wasted alot of time and energy in the process, which jeopardise the safety of other climbers and the sherpas that were looking after them. I don't know about them, but i would definitely not ignore orders and risk the safety of everyone just because of my dreams or whatsoever. We are talking about many lives here.

Then the first guy was on his way back down, then he saw this guy shivering on a rock, without oxygen left, and nobody to help him. He wanted to help, but he can't, at that height they need alot of people to bring this guy to safety. He was then told to move on, which means leave that guy to die on the mountains.

It's quite heart wrecking, when you see a person waiting to die, and you know you cannot do anything to help him, unless you have a gun then maybe can consider the option of ending his life in a faster and easier way. Haiz i wonder how that person felt laying there, knowing that the next breath he take might be his last.

This was bothering me the whole day, oh well, back to camp...

Here i go again...

2007-06-24T22:29:00.000+08:00

After 2 weeks of slacking around, never really going out much, just spending quality time with my family, it's time again, to go back where i belong, for another 1 yr and 7 8 months.

Anyway, woke up early friday morning, and countdown to my posting. The clock struck 10am, so i went to check it out.

1.You are posted to Sig Institute.

2. Bla Bla Bla infocomm2.

Took awhile for it to register into my head, then finally realised i'm going signals. Then i was added into this massive msn platoon chat, so we were talking about the posting and everything, so end up there's quite a few of them going to the same place as me also.

Heard the course is quite slack physically, so i should be able to manage with the radio sets wires and everything, but you never know, SAF is always unpredictable.

I think i have learnt how to better use my time, at least my days don't go by in an instant like that *snap*. I know what i want to do for that day, and i see to it that i get that particular stuff done, and maybe because of the longer hours that i'm awake during the 24 hours.

Oh well, reporting to my new camp tomorrow at cck. Whiskey platoon 4! Fighting fit good to go?

Now you call me private...

2007-06-12T20:20:00.000+08:00

This 2 months, literally flashed pass in an instant. My days had never gone by so quickly ever before. I could still remember the first day i step into this strange place, walking down the jetty hallway into unfamiliar territory.

First thing was the "Keep still there" by the CSM, which after awhile, we don't get to see him so often due to his superior evasion and smoking out techniques, which is a MUST KNOW for all the tan4 jia4 peng1 in the SAF.

After that slowly but surely, i get to know more and more people in the platoon, and we bonded to become brothers today.

The days before we POP was more of a time to reflect for me. The 2 months we spend together, 24/7 was somewhat special. We gone through the good times and the bad times together. I can still remember the day after we came back from a major highlight in BMT, the field camp. It was evening, went back to bunk, sat on the chair, and watched a beautiful sunset The bunk was stragetically positioned, to see the sun setting behind mainland.

The sense of satisfaction is immense, now i truly realise what NS is all about. The girls will never ever experience or understand what we went through, and how special these feelings are. Many feel that NS is a waste of time, and i admit it is, but in a more pragmatic point of view. This is simply because you don't get any monetary rewards in NS, what you gain are life values, and can never be measured with your fame or your wealth, or whatever fuck shit you have.

Today, spend the morning in the bunk, thinking about all the stuff that we went through, and we all agreed that it was sad to be leaving tekong already. We have grown to like the beds, the amount of admin time given, and the talk cock session every night. Therefore POP is quite a touching moment. It's not who's in the stands, or who put on the jockey cap for you, but it's the person standing next to you, graduating together with you. All the fuckshit you suffer and endure, just for that moment.

After POP, had a green tea drink with my bunkmate, then joined up with my father. I took a last good look at Tekong, and then boarded the ferry. The start of my military life was no doubt tough, but it was satisfying, and i hope the best is still ahead.

These 2 months, will forever be etched in my memories, thank you my brothers...

BMT nearly over...

2007-05-26T10:50:00.000+08:00

This is 1 hell of a week i must say, most of the highlights of BMT and my recruit life all cramp on this week.

Monday went for the 12km route march to our sit test campsite. Actually have been dreading for the day to come because 8km was terrible for me, but in the end, it wasn't so bad cause there was a damn big rain at about the 2km point, so we were all feeling quite cool instead of seeing stars under the hot sun. Quite a test of mental strength, of course thought about giving up, and i just keep thinking abt falling out, and think and think and think, then "eh reach already..."

The whole sit test was quite terrible i think, for me it was like field camp, maybe a little bit better, but it was still quite shag nonetheless. With luck not on my side, got the most xiong commander to take us from point to point. Under the freaking hot sun and everything, it was quite stupid la sit test, but then bo bian this is army.

Got through all the shit then reached back company line at wednesday. Next day went for grenade live throw, which was quite fun, although you get abit nervous at the start, but i think it's natural when you are sitting so far away from the grenade range, and still be able to feel the shockwave, but the explosion it generate was nice. Then there's this cockhead who threw a blind, then i got a chance to watch how powerful a C4 was. When it exploded, the roof on the waiting area tremble and shake, causing some sand to fall down from it, just like in the movies. Throw grenade to storm a room? I'll think twice now...

Then friday was the defaulter's parade, i think my platoon is the first in the whole school to kena, marching in super freaking bloody fast pace, and you can never ever follow the timer, who in this case is my CSM. After the parade was finish, my jockey cap was practically dripping sweat, then i ate lunch together with my sweat.

Woke up on thurs to listened to the champion league final, although was disappointed at the end, i'm proud of the players, from what i heard they gave their all, and with a cock up referee, it seems like its not meant to be.

Watched pirates this morning, ended at around 3+, as usual fall asleep, waste money only. I only woke up to watch the last part, which was quite nice, the fighting and everything, but the idea of a girl being i pirate is still weird. Still give some inspirational pre war talk, which wasn't exactly very motivating to me.

Oh well, must go and spend my precious book out time to do something useful, it's always so damn short.

Attained Nirvana...

2007-05-20T08:30:00.000+08:00

Finally back to civilisation after spending a few days++ with nature. Overall, i think it was quite an eye opener, never really been to the heart of a forest and slept there.

Day 1 was fucking shag for me. The 8km march really took alot out of me, i don't know about others, but the first few clicks were the worst of my life. Maybe partly because i got a super bad cough and sorethroat right at the beginning, but it was really really terrible. At the end of the march i was fucking shag already, therefore building a simple basha became a very big task for me and my buddy, who was coping with a 39 degrees fever as well.

Pull the basha stick, 1 comms cord broke, then another 1 broke, and another 1 and another 1, AND its suppose to be unbreakable. Then leopard crawl here and there, build again, then by that time i seh already, so i fall out.

After introducing us to the area and everything, next task was to dig drainage. Although i was dizzy, still lan lan bo bian, since my buddy was at medic, i did my best to dig out a decent drainage, which turned up to be not that bad as there was a fucking big rain soon after, and the tent didnt get wet.

After that learn more stuff regarding movement in a section and etc etc etc. The last day was applying our stuff to real life situation, which was quite shag, but interesting at the same time, since you have to use your brain to analyse the situation and see how you want your team to engage the enemy.

4th day packed up, and everything on the tonner, and we marched to our new oil palm plantation. We digged our cell scrape there, i think i took about 6 hours. The soil is fucking hard, had a damn bloody hard time to be honest, and with a little help from 1 of my bro, completed it.

5th day was urban training, how to scan and clear and storm rooms, very interesting and more practical in our Singapore terrain. Then we have this operation where we move in platoon with each section having an objective. Mine was to secure a building, then provide cover for the others to storm the other buildings.

1/3 alert at night was quite fun, where 1/3 of the people around you must be awake at all times. Lying there looking at the stars, thinking about alot of stuff, a good time to reflect and relax.

The last day was the best, board the 5 tonner and left the area, super happy at that point of time. Then we went for the last highlight of our field camp, the Battle Innoculation Course, where we have to leopard crawl for what seems like eternity, with machine gun using live rounds firing above us, and some thunder flash to simulate grenade being thrown at us. At first it was like chiong arh.... Then after reaching the 2nd barbwire and backcrawl through it, I already gg.

The last stretch was the worst, since on the whiteboard it was just 2cm from wire to trench, but on actual scale, its like more than 20m. Crawl and crawl and crawl....so near yet so far, but of course, i reached my destination eventually and ended the whole course.

After that was time to go home, super high also. However had to clear and clean alot of our stuff, but then just glad that its over.

Tomorrow will have the 12km route march, hope i can complete it, i think its more of a mental test for route marches, then we have the sit test, so is like another mini field camp, oh well just see how it goes.

Back once again...

2007-05-05T10:54:00.000+08:00

Finally back for the weekend, even though it will be relatively short. Later have to report at Discovery Centre for some NE stuff, quite lame i think, but then bo bian.

Still feeling very tired after yesterday hectic schedule. We went outfield at around noon, then did some fire movement and section movement. Getting down and dirty in the damp rainforest, then reached back company line abt 6. Then flew off for dinner, then back to clean rifle clean bunk pack clothes. Super bloody busy, then delayed our book out time, so when i reached home after eating dinner outside it was already like 11+.

This week quite slack in the sense that we didnt do any streneous activities. No pt no st no bcct, shiok sia. Live range for 2 days, in which i cocked up my test and didn't get marksman. IA until fed up, then after that rifle jam, and the sergeant help me clear IA, clear until misfire, chua tio.

After that no confidence in the rifle then buay zun already, haha, i scared chamber explosion then GG.

In other news, Liverpool are back in the Champion League Finals. That day super nervous, then coincidentally had to fall in 0515, then wake up jitao wait for update already. Somehow i felt that if we get through extra time then we will go through, and i was right in the end. Although i wasn't watching the kop do their magic, i can imagine the noise, the celebration, and the sacred anthem being belted out at demolition volume.

While my body was still, my heart was there at anfield, dancing with joy...

back to 21st century...

2007-04-28T11:09:00.000+08:00

Finally, after confinement for what seems like infinity, i've been let out of "jail". At first really cannot get used to the life in army. Firstly have to sweat everyday, and since i haven't been sweating for the past 4 months, quite uncomfortable. Then you have to wake up at 5 or 530, which means i would be awake for an average of 17 hours a day. It will be like take damn long to pass a day, but after a few days, when i got to know everyone better, the talk cock session started and the days seemed to pass by pretty quickly.

Yesterday quite high, everything chop chop finish. Morning had IMT, no kick la, i expect live range to be much tougher, so the IMT counts for nothing. Then after that had ST, but heng heng rain, so do halfway go back pack up liao. Then take the jetty and bus back, on the bus shouting command for the bus. Some joker shout keblakang bo seng also, hahaha.

Miss my home, miss my family, miss my friends, although can still communicate with them, but never see jiu shi not the same. I guess NS does change a guy to become a better person, i hope. More tekan will follow up i think, so just follow lor, my commanders aren't that bad also.

Time to enjoy the comfort of my home, no other place feels like home.

Embrace me...

2007-04-08T11:19:00.000+08:00

Time is like the flow of river, even if a pebble is dropped into the water, it does not stop the flow of the running water...

It seems like i have waited for this moment to come for quite a long time, and now it is about to come, i'm abit hesitant and unsure about it. I guess that's just my personality, never really wanting to change, but then since its inevitable, i realised i always cope quite well, so ya, adaptability quite good i think.

Now trying to brainstorm for items to bring into the wonderful small paradise, hahaha. From personal items to luxury items, look for some beneficial stuff to bring, just sort of updated my mp3 also, put more albums in so 1 night can listen to 1 album.

Looking forward to getting to know more people, hopefully i get to know another bunch of brothers.

日月为证，我吴建隆愿意和____结拜兄弟，虽不能同年同月同日生，只愿同年同月同日死。

Hahaha, i like this phrase. Anyway, i guess this will be the last post for quite a long time, since i'm gonna go for a long vacation, 精忠报国。

So ya, all readers, all related to me, take care while i'm gone, although you should also take care while i'm not gone. HAHA.

May paladine walk with you all...

Phantom of the opera

2007-04-05T11:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night went to watch phantom of the opera, i think it was quite a value for money show, or musical, or whatever you term it.

I'm no expert in these kind of play, so don't know how to access their performance, but then, their voice damn pro. The costume everything also very nice, and not to mention the world class orchestra, producing magic in their own field, but at the same time in harmony.

In other news, the fateful day is about to come. Now really feeling abit home sick while being at home. Really really really don't feel like leaving home, for so long some more, at least for 9 months some more i think. Haizz sian.

Been watching a serial these 2 days, 游剑江湖。林无双 is so cute!!!!! Oh man, really quite cute, but the storyline abit easy to guess though, then my idol very funny also, a wanderer, helping others in trouble, damn cool.

How i wish to wander the world, with a sword in hand, bringing hope to others...

Pre enlistment rants..

2007-04-02T10:50:00.000+08:00

Countdown sucks man, seriously. Now i have the super "don't want to get into NS" feeling. I have been thinking these few days, i think NS is quite a big thing afterall. My lifestyle will totally be different already, at least for the next 10 years maybe?

Enter NS, the time spent at home will be very very little, at least for about a year of it. Then i can't slack at home and pei my mother. Maybe i won't see them very often already, haizz...

After that still got uni life, which is so damn bloody far also, which means i may have to stay at hostel. Unless i come up with an idea or make investments in these 2 years, i can't see myself affording a car to school. Talking about that, must find some money making business to venture into during my 2 years in army, don't waste time man.

Anyway these few days indulging myself in books, finally finished the first book of my chronicles. Haha, i think it'll take quite long to finish all the books again. I think these books will be my companions in tekong.

The majere twins, just figured out why i liked them so much, simply because there's a little bit of both of them in me. i'm not really strong, but then i'm not weak either. I'm not really clever, but i'm not stupid either. Then there is the thirst for knowledge, and who knows, maybe i'll forgo bonds, friendships and everything just for the art of magic. Then again its sad when you have a brother who loves you so much, then you keep deceiving him and stab him in the back.

Oh well, don't think anyone understand that's going on also, going to play mahjong soon, haha HUAT arh..

2 more weeks...

2007-03-27T18:52:00.000+08:00

"I don't wanna close my eyes. I don't wanna fall asleep cause i miss you baby, and i don't wanna miss a thing. Cause even when i dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do cause i miss you baby, and i don't wanna miss a thing..."

Serve the country they say, armagedon i say.

Haha, clock ticking tocking, slowly but surely as usual. 2 more weeks before i enter Tekong, and i quote, from weixiang, " to search for new inspiration and fresh ideas, from the lovely small island", situated at changi++. Since we got to take a ferry to the exact destination. Changi seems so freaking fffffffffaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrr.

Watched Mr. Bean some day, can't remember when though. It's been a while since i took note of the day that passed, or is currently passing. Well that's gotta change soon, can imagine myself striking off away 5 weekdays every week, and calendar facing my wrath after every single weekday has passed. Of course, the first 2 weeks confinement will mean that i would amputate away april from the calendar.

Anyway, Bean was quite funny, and retarded of course, contradictory to my sister comments of "bu hao xiao de Mr bean". Guessed there's a generation gap there, every movie that i thought was nice was translated to not nice in her brains, oh well, you can't figure out what the young are thinking nowadays, as my mother always say.

Facing the sun's wrath after i went to sentosa on sunday. Bloody freaking wrong decision to go there. Blistering hot sun, i don't think we need a "sunshine" movie to destroy the world, that kind of sun on the weekends can easily take half the world down. Now have to wait awhile for a change in skin, damn it.

Oh yeah, glad to add that i am finally done with all the scholarship thing, quite irritating when the documents are lying all over. What i can do, i have done. I think it would be quite tricky to actually obtain that scholarship, oh well, let nature take its course. Hopefully can, but if i can't, i won't be losing to much sleep over it, just over the money.

Continuing with my journeys in krynn, now at the tower of palanthas, and just as my title of my blog suggest, the gates opened for the master of the past and the present. Don't you just love raist? Haiz, really wished everything in this world was so simple. If you're not evil, then you're good. Of course, and the neutrals who strive to restore the balance. I want to use magic! Maybe with my character, i may end up like raistlin as well, walking down the path to become the greatest of all. What great writers, margaret and tracy, salute them.

On a more random note, damn all the ah bengs in the world, especially those that keep on pestering others. Ta ma de.

movie and movie and movie....

2007-03-22T19:24:00.000+08:00

The whole week practically filled with movies. Friday i watched stomp the yard, pretty nice dance moves here and there. But the snakes and wolves thingy were pretty lame and childish. Expected nicer dancing than just some clapping all over the body, but overall it was quite ok, only that the BGR part was damn boring. I can't understand why they need to add that in movies that's about dancing. You got served had about the same storyline, can't remember though.

Saturday watched music and lyrics, quite a sweet movie, nice songs and everything, the plot quite cute also. The retro song is the best though, hahaa oldies my favourite.

Sunday watched Happily N'ever After, ya very very nice, and cute. No choice man people do read my blog you know HAHA. I think the mambo very cute, always talk rubbish. Not really for kids i think, i don't think they get most of the jokes.

Yesterday met up with thia, and we watched 300. Inspiring movie, nice fighting and everything. I especially liked the killing part, so skilled and they coordinate so well together. Really is enjoyed watching those enemies getting slaughtered. Then read the newspaper today, Iranian talking about the movie being a propaganda.

Seriously, what rubbish.

Music and lyrics there was a part they used the buddha statue for the crap dancing and dressing so indecently. DID ANYONE COMPLAIN?? Although i felt offended, but then it's just a movie. Understand the words it's just a movie? Nobody is saying anything, i think they really nothing to do.

Should be going down to NUS tmr, submit my scholarship documents, see how it goes ba. Another 2 weeks before i get enlisted...OMG..haha

Mahjong, casino..BADDD

2007-03-17T14:24:00.000+08:00

Just recently came back from my cruise trip to phuket and penang. This time, it was purely a gambling trip, instead of the sleep eat sleep eat kind of trip.

First night already got summoned to the mahjong room to play my first 2 rounds of mahjong. At first sweating, because they were playing 50 cent 1 dollar, zhi mo another $3, and gang is $3 $6. The stakes were pretty high, for my standard, so could only get use to the stakes after awhile.

Mahjong was on almost everyday, so i clocked abt 7 8 rounds of mahjong experience on this trip. A rewarding process, earned $40 at the end, but lost 110 on the last day as i really did not want to play, but was forced anyway. Got used abit to guarding people, trying to guess the cards they want and need. Still at the amateur level, but at least its better than before i went up the cruise. So darrell ong you better watch out. LOL

Other than that i went in to casino for a stroll. Haha end up helping my aunties to cut the cards, then in the end losing streak changed to winning streak. Most of them recover their losses, and went on to win money, so i guessed its good. One of my auntie won quite alot, then give me 700 as "commission". Well i guessed how the term "hard earned money" came about.

On a more serious note, it is quite sad to see them so obsessed with gambling. It's like addicted to drugs, maybe something more serious than that. That's why i was abit reluctant to accept the "commission". If i don't accept it, it may seem like i'm arrogant or something like that, then if i accept it, it seems like the responsibility of them winning or losing lies on me. Anyhow, i didn't like the feeling. They adviced me never to gamble, and i guess i probably will never indulge in it. Mathematically they ALWAYS have the advantage, the only thing to turn the tables on them is luck, and how lucky can you get week in week out. One day you are bound to lose, and as they play on your greed, you are bound to lose big.

Guess the gambling genes runs in the family. I like to gamble, dai dee, mahjong etc etc, but i gamble for fun, for laughter. Them, they gamble for money, or in some extreme cases, they gamble because they want to gamble, so even if they win, they still wanna go on, can't get themselves to stop.

Penang was ok, didn't really get to shop much, only got to eat all the penang food, as good as ever. We went to the temple to pray, then went back to my er yi house. After that rushed back to cruise because of my mother's surgical wound bleeding. Today went for checkup again, results should be out on wednesday, hope it's positive. Going through another surgery is quite scary, especially when someone who goes in that door, someone you know, someone related to you. As the door closes, however slim it is, there's this chance you won't be able to see him or her again.

The next day went to phuket, went to the temple, light up some firecrackers. After went to some ulu shopping centre, and bought nothing. In the end can only wait for the last stop, a quite big shopping centre like carrefour. Bought a cheap jeans, i like the jeans there. Looked for it for quite long, because don't know why there's an influx of branded jeans, but in the end found what i was looking for.

THE SACRED 199 BAHT TAG, equivalent to
Anyhow choose a normal jeans colour then try, must as tight as possible, because wash liao will become quite loose. Thinking what my cousin say is true also, who cares your jeans what brand, your tuck out shirt also cover the brand. damn true.

Then went to pia the singlets, only take a few, and starting to regret that i didn't take more. Chose for mh too, since he quite like the singlet. After that buy a addidas shorts, $17. Ok lor, then went back le. Same on board routine again, then after that reach home le.

Don't disrupt karen now...

2007-03-11T05:26:00.000+08:00

Haha, don't know why suddenly so emotional.

Days where laughing becomes increasingly difficult. Times where you hope everything else keeps quiet, with only soothing music in both your mind and your heart.

As my title suggests, i'm listening to carpenters now. I think her voice damn unique, really can feel the effect. Quite cruel that she was robbed of her life, when she could have touched many more with her music. Then again on the bright side, her legacy still remains...

Bored, going cruise later in the afternoon, seriously don't feel like going. I can already imagine my activities. Sleep, sleep, sleep. Maybe i bring some shorts go there jog, maybe i can run better when facing the sea.

Will be back on wednesday, until then, may all readers stay safe. May paladine walk with you...

Dark horse of the century..

2007-03-06T00:55:00.000+08:00

As you can see, the title of this post says it all, still cannot really believe i was capable of this kinda results. I can't really remember what really happen that time.

All i remembered was...

"05S9A, Ian Chan."

Then i was there clapping, talking with one of my classmates and closer friends at the back together with chun boon, commenting that ian as usual, going up the stage regularly throughout our 2 years.

I was telling my classmate " Ian arh, always damn pro, zai lor go up again, you..."

"05S9A, Desmond Goh"

*he stares at me, 5s went by..*

Chun Boon then said "call you leh."

I turn around and reply him "call me arh..."

Then my classmate already pushing me out of the backdoor liao, could hear my FM teacher who was sitting behind asking me to faster go up collect.

Ran by the outside to the front, ian was already signing his name to acknowledge getting the results. I went up, and the principal ask me what name. Reply le he gave me the slip, then of course is mai tu liao, check name and IC see correct anot first. Confirm correct liao then smile at him, still take 1 picture, don't know for what.

After that go out talk to ian, wondering how much luck we had to get such results. Haha, can still remember the many mistakes we made during our Post Exam Checks. After that went to thank our subject teachers, then chit chat awhile with my classmates and then bid our farewell, most probably won't be seeing them as regularly as we were in schools.

Happy to see my parents so happy, but sad to see those who didn't do well.

Now few days after, dust has already settled, must concentrate and focus on the upcoming match tmr. Clean nice finish, that's all i want.

Lately not doing much, but hoping to get my fitness up to prepare for the approaching NS. Rejected a data entry job that candy jie jie offered me, as i have no idea what course i want to take.

Set up a Sunrise Club with darrell ong, because i've been watching the sunrise online with him daily in australia time. Anyone care to join?

Then there's katherine, wanting a piece of the action here, by declaring she's bored. And again, the msn sound ring through the whole room, accompanied by the 2 words "damn bored". I also bored, super free but damn annoyed by the constant thoughts "what course should i take?"

Really getting quite irritating, hope i sort it out soon. Give 1 mth only also don't know what to do, hope the openhouse will provide some insights to what i wanna do. Haiz...

Adrenaline..

2007-02-22T06:17:00.000+08:00

Haha i'm so happy that i can't sleep.

Nothing else in this world can get me down at this moment. This is what i lived for...

:)

low and low and low...

2007-02-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

This few days getting low, especially today, but it's definitely not because of Valentine's day, I'm not that lame.

Maybe because after reading Sturm Brightblade and Flint Fireforge unfortunate death, then caused me to have alot of negative feelings and thoughts.

In the books, both of them died quite sadly. Sturm died being killed by one of his, or rather the companions old time friend kitiara, whereas Flint die largely because of his old age and weak heart.

Their friends were naturally sad for awhile, but afterwards i guessed they tried to look at the positives.

Then again, how hard will it be to look at the positives? If one of my friends leave the world, can i just smile and said he fulfilled his purpose? Can i say another adventure begins for him? Nah i don't think so, don't think i can accept that fact.

Well maybe i'm childish, a kid, just like how laurana acted in the beginning. Hopefully my mindset will change in the future, anot it will be quite a hell of a time when someone leaves this world. Sad, but it's reality. Maybe i'll go first, then save me the trouble of all the pain and anguish. LOL, life, you'll never know...

Think i have to try to dispel these negative thoughts in my mind, chinese new year is coming man, have to think positive about the future. Ok shall stop the negative thoughts here, no more. HUAT ARH!

On a more serious note, i like this poem alot, well i guess i'll arrange it to be read out when i'm on my deathbed. But no, not yet, MY PURPOSE IN THIS WORLD IS NOT FULFILLED. My time is not up. I hope not, i wanna live for at least 60 more years, there's still alot of things i've not yet done.

For now, here's the poem:

Return this man to Huma's breast
Beyond the wild, impartial skies;
Grant to him a warrior's rest
And set the last spark of his eyes
Free from the smothering clouds of wars
Upon the torches of the stars.
Let the last surge of his breath
Take refuge in the cradling air
Above the dreams of ravens where
Only the hawk remembers death.
Then let his shade to huma rise
Beyond the wild, impartial skies.

for him...the gates had opened

gone with the wind

*looks back*

Don't buy the sun.

It's been awhile...

天下无不散之宴席

YAYYYYYYY

The year 2008.

My single best moment of Liverpool

YYYEEEESSSSS

Haiz...

"without killing anyone, we won it 3 times..."

Super belated bday present? hari raya present? CHRISTMAS?? hahaha

YESSSSSS

End of the 7th month...

WHAT A BEAUUUUTYYYYYYY...

here comes fernando alonso....

My shot for olympic gold...

my club my view

百万大歌手

A 10k word HK trip...

Celebrating 2 decades...

Simian line...

Flying...

hectic week..

Tell me what am i suppose to do without you...

Is there no more hope?

HK - airport

Hong Kong

Back to earth...

HK here i come...

Air Supply from the heart tour 2008

Abit seh

Watching show.

Out...

PS i love you...

Recovery week...

The day after the marathon

The reason why cars are so important...

A long long loooooonnngggg weekend...

Ouch...

3 years ago this day...

Congrats....

把爱传出去。

So true....

What a crappy year.

Wow i'm out...

On 5th may 2008...

Family ties...

Get well soon....

Bold = i think it's damn true

I'm so freaking proud of you guys :)

Heartbreaking...:(

Haiz...

El nino...

His armband proved he was a red torres torres.

celebrating 1 year of time wasting...

Chua sai...

Counting down the time...

How would you feel?

where's this?

the long awaited post...

100m run anyone?

My destiny...

Bad start to the year 2008,

Some pressing matters...

Cya on chinese new year...

A girl i would like to know...

what i've been doing the past few days...

Don't blame me i was starting to get pissed...

Wow, resolution time..

line phobia...

Tragedy...

ARGHHHHH...

close brush with death maybe?

Sai Gang warrior...

Back for just awhile...

Tuesday with morrie...

Army Half Marathon

Low key period

looks back